haihai;
I feel very pathetic,useless & stuff;
why am I such a useless person?
I do things at the wrong time;
I say the wrong things;
I'm sickandtiredof all;
even.
whenever ppl need me , I'm always not there.
I dun mean not there, is.
I'm just hanging around, waiting for them;
I dunno liao;
I just dun want disturb them;
I feel that, when they wanna say it, they can say it;
after what hnin tell me;
I really feel like a piece of worthless crap;
back to emo mood.
--
Came home;
den;
the bloodybloody sulake didn't let me in;
until I did everything;
complaint email all;
all the way;
from 5:21 to 6+

hais;
was originally quite cheerful;
bcause of the new south wales paper;
that one i did it in p5 i remember;
and I guessed I did pass;
but the rest of the subjects I failed;
LOL;
so I didn't get into round two;
but this time round I did;
Achievement?;
I dun really think so;
and.
I'm tired of ppl bugging me;
why can't they just leave me alone and do their own things?
everytime saying things like,
"You dunnid worry la, confirm pass de la."
Wtf is this supposed to be? Consoling? Crap more like.
Den today chinese oral was shit;
the reading was okay; but a bit weird;
discussion part confirm fail;
I dunno wtf I talking also;
hais;

next tuesday supposed to be the round two;
but i dunno wth am I supposed to go;
I have netball;
I mean administrative duties;
hais;
maybe coach will allow;
this is international level;

I dun wanna serve as a disturbance;
I just wanna .. be somebody who you'll confide in;
who you'll share troubled things with;
and;
help you in your distress;
I seem to be the last one;
I dunno why;
I keep feeling that;
you're keeping something from me;
and you dun wanna tell me;
I just wanna be there for you.
to be a listening ear for you;
and i feel that;
you think I'm a annoyance to you;
you said that;
you wanted somebody;
and you duno who;
and said that since I say that I'm never there for you;
you rather gtg and sleep;
I dun understand.
seriously;

you know;
once i type this;
I can feel tears coming out;

ppl ask me why I never dj so long le;
I also dunno liao;
I getting no mood;
exams are so near already;
I better stop computing and start studying;
I must study hard;
if may;
I'll turn cold-hearted;
just to assure that our sch doesn't get left out;
students dun get biased treatment;
we are no longer the UNKNOWN sch in singapore;
you know;
whenever I say about my sch;
nobody knows where it is;
I feel so pathetic;
english oral ms goh say I never stopped;
den infront of whole class say;
you know, punctuation is there for a reason.
I feel like a fool.
den when she announced the results;
I couldn't believe it at first;
when we went out;
a lot ppl say they wanna kill me and stuff;
I guess all are joking;
but one;
she said she's going to beat me;
well;
I'll try my best too;
Assement books & books;
here i come.

--

I better study hard;
grades dropping;
a lot of stuff happening already;
I feel like emo.
nevermind.

I'm going to finish pw;
den go to sleep;
not a good day;
--

If I told you I loved you,
what would your reaction be?

Without you around,
would things have ended differently?

What hurts the most
is when you see your loved ones unhappy,
and you can't do anything about it.

Sometimes I wished I could take out my heart and throw it out the window

--

to have listened;
to have done something;
to have cared;
is maybe the most perfect thing you can offer in a friendship.