its friday!
somehow i don't feel happy at all, knowing its the end of a hectic week ..
woke up late,
started waking around 6, considered too early, so slept again, all th way until 7,
rushed to bustop at 7.05?
7.17 bus arrived,
7.22 bus reached school bustop.
walao, i first time so almost LATE luh, =="
just a couple of minutes of stepping in the school i'll be late alr.
i guess people were shocked to see me arrive at class so late hahas.
okay, then i went on to history class,
hands trembling, shivering.
no idea why, the weather's too cold alr.
somehow, in history, the stomaches came back.
pe, height and weight plus 1.2 km run with kirin.
omg, im short
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megamega, short
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so short!
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-obsess.
eee, im a shortie.
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T.T
i want grow, fastfast.
i think i every year only grow 1cm+
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i want a growth spurtttt!
nownownow!
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kuaidian!
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T.T

okay, stop obsessing.
somehow i was drifting off to sleep after ms sunarti's class ended,
so tired suddenly,
exhaustion caught me unaware.
was gng to sleep like a peeg, when inshirah suddenly shouted,
yes, she's right behind me -.-"
and she shouted, woke me up =="
came home, watched television and stuff,
then suddenly exhaustion took me unaware again.
drifted off to sleep without thinking much,
woke up at 9+
LOL, like say, 4 hours ++ of sleep,
eyer, im a pig ._.

suddenly, i think about you,
it's not that bad as it was the last time,
didn't have the time to think so much about what happened the past few times,
so i didn't really cry,
but one thing im sure is,
i still miss you,
im still continuing loving you,
it's so easy to say a word of bye,
yet so hard to really cut off from you,
i miss you girl.
come back to me,
please?
i want to continue our broken relationship,
though i know i'll be suffering at the end ..
i miss you badly.
turn back time if you want,
i'll go back in time with you,
cause i want to still remain as one of your best friends ..
you were once the younger sister i never had,
but yet,
life has to take you away from me,
reducing a part of joy in my lifetime,
making me sure i'll regret this.
D:

looking at my previous posts, back when i was secondary one, or two,
it made me feel very silly,
that such a fool like me have written such nonsense.
(:

you think you're forgotten,
but you're not,
i tell you so.
the wound that you cut in my heart so deeply still remains there,
continuing to start bleeding and bleeding,
so much that i feel like crying all the time, and
not stopping at all ..
how could you tell so much lies, yet expect me to forgive
you and take it in my stride,
i ain no perfect person,
i have feelings too.
how could you just walk away,
expecting me to pick up the broken pieces of my journey with you,
and continue to move on?
i hate you,
and i can't bear to continue loving you.
loving you hurts, just so much.
it used to be a pain in my heart,
but now i can't still say that i'm successfully over you,
part of me is still wishing that i still had you for support,
the support engine within me is collapsing,
but i can proudly say that it does hurt, but not that bad to the extent of
crying.
thankyou, once again.
thankyou, for giving me this hurtful
experience.
we can't continue to be friends,
i still can't pretend that
nothing happened ..
even though it has been more than 6 months ..
my heart still remembers the hurt and pain.
don't expect me to return back with a grin,
and continue our past friendship,
no matter how strong i seem,
i can't just forget that nothing happened,
sorry, i just can't forget ..

lalalalas,

okay, end post.

..

i want go pandan reservoir someday,

somehow, i miss it so much.

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must time really distance friendship?
..
it makes me kinda scared,
does it mean that after the o's,
we'll never be friends again?
i don't want that to happen,
i don't want time to overwhelm over us,
and distance us right after the major exam,
like what it happened once,
i can't stand losing yet another close friend,
promise you'll still be there,
waiting for me,
chatting eagerly with me,
laughing crazily with me and my antics,
continuing to be my friend..

loves,