envy.

i never thought today will come to pass..
indeed it has.

THE DAY MY BAG BROKE O:!
(Like seriously, isn't a big deal but wdv.)

Omg, i like it okay! Yellow ^^. If you're one of those people from my class who saw me carry my bag using my bare hands to and fro every lesson, and is curious to find out why, read below:

The bag originally had one of the zip disconnected, then the second zip decided to join it, so it could go through but there would be holes -.-
(like if on purpose, yes, i assume)


CAN YOU LIKE BELIEVE IT?!

It declared independence and demanded to be retrenched from the job of carrying my books.

):! no salary okeh, expire so fast ):!

Got back el, hist, mt paper already.
TOTALLY SCREW UP JOB.

If you think i'm a arse for complaining, so be it.
I had enough of people comments and making sure that i am CONSIDERED NORMAL.

SCREW UP JOB 1:
English was bad.
Two passes in the class, and i failed.
I FAILED.
FAILED ..
Suddenly the thought of failure seems to be glooming over.
I never thought that i would fail english.
I always passed.
But right now, pass -> understatement of the year.
a brand new white record blemished by the slightest red mark.
talk about unbelievables.

Looks like i gotta get used to the prospect of failing.
The feeling is pure indifference.
I have no idea why.
It just doesn't affect me as i thought it would.
Shock, YES.
Fear, YES.
BUTTERFLIES IN STOMACH WHEN RESULTS ANNOUNCED, CHECK YES.
but,
.. I wasn't mournful.
I didn't shed a tear.
(if you understand what i mean)

This is coming from somebody who have never failed english, in primary or secondary school (sec sch pretty much confirmed, primary - never)

For school that is.
For tuition? Feh. Fail like cmi, cannot count already :D
You ask, worse result you ever gotten and why? 4/25, questions pure inferential, 10/10 difficulty level.

But i was disappointed. I expected better, and MUCH BETTER.
This paper cannot be considered hard or easy, it was just, I'll give it a 7 on a scale of 10 in difficulty level.

Why screw up, you are so near to passing, you shouldn't feel sad.
Right. Because due to my COCK-EYE-ness, I missed out qn 1c,
didn't do it, didn't get the mark (and it was a sure score qn).
One mark gone, and that would make my result 14/30.

I changed the question to my own words, 2m question -> 0m.
Patheticness => That would make me score at least 15/30, a pass mark.
God, can i just kill myself and get this over and done with already?

This is just the beginning, more is about to come.
-embrace the challenge.

I CAN DO IT ^^!


SCREW UP JOB 2:

Due to the abovementioned cockeye-ness, i did it again. I missed out one question which was 1m, which would make my score be 27/28 (attaining perfection 28/28 in the case of getting 1m extra from mr low for passing up classwork)

You might say, HEY, ARE YOU A BAKA (dummy)? YOU GOT SO HIGH AND YOU ARE WISHING YOU GOT HIGHER? WHAT A LOSER! Yeah. Perhaps. But it was due to my carelessness and cockeye ness that i didn't get the mark, therefore the unpleasantness.

But i love history ^^

JUSTIFICATION:
I am just kiasu. I'm worried for my ss which i'm convinced is a totally cmi thing, cause i screwed the thing up and caused me to cry D: I'm even convinced that i would be failing it. I HOPE I PASS. PLEASE MR ONG, LEMME PASS OKEH. I'll TRY TO SCORE IN SS IF YOU DO.

-pray to god, allah, buddha and whatever gods there are: PLEASEEEEEEEE!

SCREW UP JOB 3:

I changed my answers which resulted in a loss of 8 + 4 = 12m for mcq i suppose and another 5marks gone for naq. Did i mention it to you? I hate naqs ):!

..

Yeah, this is the end of today's blogpost.
):!
Bye.