Diary dated 19.1.07.

When it all falls apart

Wish i knew what to do now. Its falling apart , piece by piece . And the worst thing ish , I can't do anything about it except to watch it happen. Hope they forgive me.

I really had no choice but to do that.I feel like screaming out all the things I find unfair and shout out the things I am disgrunted about. I can't confide in anyone except myself and it hurts. Sure hurts . I dun wanna care about anything anymore. This year was a total mess-up from the start and I seriously hope things will go better in the coming months and all that.

I have to admit , I lied that I was happy and all that. I had to. You know what , I'm kind of tired with thinking the same old thing , sleeping on it and mulling over it whenever I get free time. I'm sick and tired of everything. Just waiting for that special day , I hope that day will be the best day of my life. I stopped blogging nowadays cuz I find it a waste of time and useless. If everybody can read it , whats the point of having a blog? Everybody knows what u think and all that. I guess this is the last post I'm gonna make on either blog. I hate to admit it , but I'm a coward and dun wanna ppl to guess my thoughts out loud.

25 March - I'm waiting.