I just chased away my laogong;
i dunno whats wrong with me these days;
I broke down again;
pathetic right;
I do THINGS AT THE WRONG TIME.
I say THINGS AT THE WRONG TIME.
EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT;
ME AND MINE ALONE;
I told her what was going on;
I dunwanna her to be disturbed by me.
I'm A PEST;
IRRITATINGANNOYINGPEST;
SOIWANNASPAREHERTHEAGONY;
crap?
--

I said those hurtful words to her;
i'm sorry;
cause;
I'm already crying when I typed out all these words.
I dun wanna her to disturb her studies cause of me.
hais.

wiping fresh new tears;
feeling sad once again;
I manage to ruin things again;
woot?

if I said that there were no you and me
what would you have said.
if I said that I no longer loved you
would you have cried?
if I said that I love you wholeheartly
but I couldn't go out with you
what would you have said.
I fear to confess to you
cause I'm FAT,SHORT,DUMBASS.
and,
we already have a friendship.
why ruin it?
even if I'm PRETTY,AVERAGE and stuff;
I wouldn't have chosen to stead with you;
cause.
one word.
S T U D I E S.

I can only glance at you from one corner;
a tear escaping my eyes.
when you were sick or absent
I was worried for you
when I found out you had stead
did you know my heart broke;
broke badly;
I tried to put on a happy front for you
cause I was happy for you.
I couldn't.
did you know i escaped to the toilet
to not see your face or hers?
hais.

you dun know anything about me
you dun even love me.
why should I even care.
hais.