it's over.

never thought that it would end.
i thought, no matter what, i would just care for you, and we'll be forever tgt.
looks like it's ain true.
i'm putting too much effort to mantain this r/s ain i?

i'm tired.
i'm sick of it
sick and tired of faking a smile, acting like nothing's wrong, keeping your hurtful comments to my heart.
maybe we're just ain meant to be best of friends.
maybe it's just a waste of time and development space.

we never seem to meet.
whenever i go right, you go left
we keep quarrelling, or cold war.

i'm tired, and i hate to admit it, but it's dragging me down
have you ever considered that i might be busy.
have you ever wondered whether i cared for you?
have you ever pondered over me?
i wonder.

it's always a imbalance
either i put in too much, or you put in too much.
it never goes equal.

it's emotionally,
physically,
mentally,
getting worse.
by the days.
and hurting me.

yes i'm a pest,
i agree i can be obsessive sometimes.
a bit jealous of your buddies who you seem to love more
i just want to know more about you.
to care more about you.

yet it seems that our time is up.
i want to talk to you, continue the old times, but it's always no time, don't want, no mood.
i don't know what to say to you anymore,
what to talk to make it sounds unweird?
to make it sound normal?

i have no idea anymore.
enlighten me then.

wo ai ni.
i love you.
aishiteru.