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fly away, like the cool breeze that's flowing in the wind ..

i have always loved the idea of lying down on the ground and looking up at the azure blue sky, the beauty of the white clouds.

ilovenature(:

well,except mosquitos and some insects which continually pester me.

had netball for the past two days.
it was fun, except for the whole "being-late" part, okay, i sleep at 1+ every night, and i look up and down, think about tomorrow, and then finally i get my mind rested, and i can sleep.
hais.

i suddenly felt emotional at the swing.
today, me, amanda, cally, hafizah, krystal go out together lah.
as in, go library help mdm teresa, read books and stuff,
then later we went to yuhua macs for the three's breakfast (hafizah, amanda & krystal)
we met sheila, yunsing and one other girl at macs.
we talk cock lah, practically, then it was like zzz, cause i didn't have sufficient sleep.
then they were fooling around, a bunch of kids.
sometimes i really feel like a parent watching four kids -.-

then later we went over to the swings lah,
playplay, swingswing, the cool breeze of air was simply welcomed.
ilovewind, rain, everything, except the bright hot sun ):
kiddy time.
lols, i was there almost screaming and shouting like mad woman, cause i have a immense fear of heights, it was like, my stomach had a bad feeling and stuff, swingswing, then suddenly go so high up and looking down really made me feel the pits.
after that, we go home le, but very nice, except for the emo part.
they were genuinely concerned and worried, so i really felt touched(:

i don't know what got into me at that moment,
i was just thinking..
and suddenly i felt sad again.
for no reason.
hehe.

well, found my micmic at last(:
i had a mike cause i used to be the deejay of my own website, cool ain it.
then i used to use it,
but when i closed down the whole webby, my mic was rendered useless,
so it was like lost to me.
and i finally found it,
yay-ness!

somehow, it brought back memories, of '06 & '07 again.
the acceptance of the deejays at Alex's webby,
alex himself, joash, savina, salina, cheekiat, so many people,
the recruitment of hp workers, kenneth, jaslyn, yvonne, janice, everybody,
and when douglas joined us, tricia, nath, weijie, hais.
sweet, fond memories of the good old times together, laughing together, playing mad antics on each other, mindgames, conversing at night, interaction, communication, common interest, so much, i loved those times.
just so much.
i remembered how distraught we were when one left, another left..
playing habbo had seemed so interesting then.
now, without the usual noise and fond laughter, its' rendered useless and boring.
i admit, it broke my heart at that time, to close down something that had been so dear to me, i'm sure that everybody then felt a close connection to each other, although it was all virtual.
i love you guys, i mean it, i really do.
we learnt about each other, communicated, talked, interacted, so fun.
the transformation of habcord to something bigger: 101degree was nice.
101degree enjoyed immense success as a unique webby never before in habbo history.
ilovethetimes deejaying.
ilovedeejaying.
it broke my heart to declare closing down of the webby.
i hated to make that fateful decision.
still, no crying of split milk, it was alr done, i can't regret it ever.
if i had a choice, i guess i would have closed it down sooner or later, it was only a matter of time.
the beginning, dec 06, jan 07, feb 07, march 07, april 07, may 07, june 07, july 07, august '07, october '07, nov '07, dec'07 , the end.
now it seemed so awkard to talk to them.
knowing that we had been so close to each other, that once.
playing truth or dare, find the exit and everything else, it really took my heart and soul with it.
i was so engrossed, so enthusiastic.
for the first time in my life,
i really owned something,
that wasn't bought,
that wasn't a hand-me-down,
it was mine, and solely mine alone.
enriching people's lives,
communicating with different people,
the experience,
i shall treasure the last moments until the end.
sure, i had made a mistake.
a foolish, very very stupid mistake.
to get so involved,
and so hurt in the end.
but now, its good ain it,
friends,
just friends.
never the best of friends,
never goodfriends,
never bestfriends.
hais.

gameover,
marks thee end.