I feel like the troublemaker;
what my mum always sae,
constigator.

Haiz. everytime always like dat de.
might as well I end my life;
nothing happen right.

I do this got problem;
I do that got problem;
WHAT THE HELL YOU WANT ME TO DO THEN?
seriously.

I must have done something wrong in my past life;
I tell you.
My brother and sister always quarrell because of me.

I want use computer:

- Quarrel
- Furniture tio throw about
- Door tio slammed.
- Anger
- Frustration
- Guilt
- Patheticness.

Haiz.

I think I better end my life;
A lot of things happened.

I dunnoe,
maybe I just can't face up to reality.

Reality that I'm a short and fat girl.
Today one of my tution classmate's brother reminded me.
He said that, he would rather die than to be like me,
or.
Imagine if so-and-so had my size.

Haiz.

So what if I'm fat?
Dhen today the guys were playing bluetooth with the opposite class;
Insults and more insults came out;
Dhen one idiotic guy go and take my photo;
Show around;
Everybody mock luh;
I just pretended I dunno what he was talking about;
It really affected me.

It was a picture taken of me wearing my specs.
I look alright without specs.
But, I really need specs, short-sightness.
In my fury,
I deleted that photo;
That guy remarked that;
He still got copies;
I dun care liao;
he want spread spread la;
kns .

I asked my sister;
she said, this shows that you're famous.
please lahhs, I rather not have that kinda treatment.

I don't understand why people in this modern era are so freaking biased.
Why can't they just get used to it;
and shut up their big mouth;
People would appreciate it.

So what if I'm fat,
at least I study better dhen you do;
That was what that kept me going;
I dunno liaos.

I dun even know where I want to study in;
Study what;
Major in what;
And plently of stuffs.

Maybe I'll die single;
I'll keep my fingers crossed;

I love my ZHANISI;
LAOPO;
RAZOR;
and a lot more.

They really very nice.
especially zhanisi;
Zha ni si; wo ai ni.

I dun get another thing is,
why are people so ..
erratic?
They can't get used to things like laopo.
Serious.

So what if I got laopo;
Doesn't mean that I'm lesbian right;
kns.
You're just jealous luh.
I'm wiating for the time that people can get used;
maybe guys can have their own buddy.

Another issue: Racism.

I said on 101degree.tk's radio:
Racism is a really serious issue.
Just because
different colour;
different race;
Dhen not happy liao;
want fight ah,
biased;
discriminated.

Then what the hell is Singapore having Racial Harmony Day?
If like that right, Singapore dun need exist liaos.
Can just,
China - Chinese people ONLY.
Malaysia - Malay people ONLY.
India - Indian people ONLY.
England - Europeans ONLY.
Africa - Africans ONLY.
and so forth.

I feel that Singapore have a need to combat these types of issues;
they are troubling today's youth;
and may end up to be the cause of several problems in the future.

We just celebrated Racial Harmony Day and National Day;
Yet, people are still in the racism thing,
what's the use man.