i'm getting crazier.
i cried two days ago.
just thinking about all the things that have happened to me ever since i entered shuqun secondary school,
thinking about the biased treatments because I'm a shuqun student.
thinking about all the bullshit treatment i faced in secondary one;
thinking about the class allocation for sec3.

talked to a lot of ppl who cheered me out.
huaiyue for instance.
dhen talk talk talk, she understood.
cause i dun wannna be separated from my best buddies.
and i talked to nithya.
i couldn't control my tears you know.
just discussing the bare topic alone, made me very sad.
i mean, it's not fair that is based on maths and sciences or whatever la;
I know my own abilities.
I can't cope with too many subjects.
thats why i chose not to appeal for literature or for pure sciences.
what a bad choice i made in 2005.
the school wouldn't support the language kind of pupils.
hais.

-xEDIT [from janice]
i wish i could be dead.
i wanna leave the fucking school asap
i dun wanna see some ppl;
i thought i would be separated from the fktard treatment.
if it's like that, because of quarrels.
dhen i call principal say i have been bullied.
would they separate me?
i doubt not.
=l
been crying and emoing at times.
jerald have been there for me i admit.
just that,
sometimes,
i really hated the idea of vieing for attention.


i dunno what to say le.
since you wanna lie to me.
i dun give a damn.
because you're my friend.
but you chose to lie to me.
kfine.
i dun wanna hear any of the lies.

--

i was so fucking pissed off when i heard from him.
how did he know.
ended up a traitor.
you good
i trusted you.
janice trusted you.
end up,
we tio betrayed.
you should have knew.
I created this web is to prove our abilities.
that without his help we still can survive.
but i want perfection, not a perfect web, but at least lookable and you had to go and tell him.
kfine.
whatever.
what you expect me to do now.
can you make sure that you tell the ppl are secure?
just because his your exboss.
how about me?
you good.
bloody bloody damn well good.
it's a secret.
S-E-C-R-E-T hao bu hao.
not supposed to be revealed until we're ready
you know we got the problem of autorefreshing and some pages haven been done up, yet you go tell him.
i'm fucking pissed at you.
so is janice.
we never expected you to do that can.
now i can't trust you anymore.
you know it.
once, twice, thrice.
once bitten twice shy okay.

the web is doing fine.
for the moment.
shutting down all functions.
discussing.

leadership camp was amazingly fun.
we had lecture on leadership abilities.
drawing a animal of leadership.
there was LION, EAGLE, RAT [Rattatouille] , SPIDER and even ANT.
lmao, i was cracking up at rattatouille, that rat is so CUTEEEEEEEEEEEE;
LOLL.
dhen blahblah presentation.
Amazing race was fun.
siva, ezza, yongsheng, moi, one guy, Ros and two malay girls teamed up.
fun mah.
but we kena sabo-ed.
tio la.
stand in field walking about.
cause some red shirt basket tell us in the field.
-.-
van gough.
in the field.
wtf?
LOLLL.
we got second.
amazingly although we could get first ;l
nbm.

second day.
HOSTING AND ORGANIZING EVENTSSSS;
so damn funnehx.
enjoyed myself presenting
stupid questions like,
what if they broke a bone [ambulance duh]
what if kena disease [hello, think too much le ba]
LOLL.
cause sec3 camp mah.
group reaching sec3 le, obviously do that luh.
went for lunch.
omg luh.
ANNA IS SO BLOODYYYYYYY INSANE;
SHE CAN DRIVE A SENSIBLE PERSON TO CRAZE WITH HER.
LOLL.
i ate with michelle they all mah.
then eat instant noodles.
i eat halfway.
EHHH, why got ant.
LOL.
Anna and the rest freaked out.
dhen.
michelle instant noodles also got.
LOLL.
no wonder the shop so cheapo.
xD.
instant noodle + hot water = $1!
michelle treated.
yaaay ;x
dhen.
finish eating ma.
atiqah tell me a sb gross thing.
dhen later her bottle dropped to the ground.
anna freaked out.
tot her bottle.
i tell atiqah to dump it.
cause the owner dun want it.
dhen so ps can.
cause atiqah is the owner .
LOLLL.

go library.
kena insulted i hawny.
not my fault that sch got so many nc16 teenage fiction books.
LOLL.
cause michelle maybe borrowing.
dhen i was about to intro her the doremon.
the library mistress mdm teresa.
take the wooden stick
whack my butt.
pain lei.
dhen.
atiqah and the rest like grabbing wooden sticks want piak my butt when i turned behind >:D.
bad luh.
I senior tio bully by juniors.
LOLL.

last day,
played games.
TREES, SQUIRRELS AND EARTHQUAKE.
Separate into group of threes.
two stand up hold hand = trees.
squirrels sit inbetween the two ppl.
only one squirrel per group.
commands of earthquake, fire, hunter.
EARTHquake; all zao, reset positions.
FIREEE; trees run away find new partner. [flirt like de LOLL]
HUNTERRR; squirrel run away.
me and paulene very suay.
lose because of tanchoonkiat that basket.
LOL.
he squirrel never see us.
end up we eliminated.

next game,
Group War;
everybody divided according to birthmonth.
dhen.
divide into quartermonths.
like.
Jan,Feb,March = Chinese Warriors.
April, May, June = Red Indians.
July, Aug, Sept = Gangster
Oct Nov Dec = Cowboy.
damn funneh.
let me explain.
attack of indians; place hand on mouth to let the sound of indians.
defence; catch catch break.

attack of chinese warriors; ching chang chiong [warrior]
defence; bu yao [ mei ren ji, beauty trapp]

attack of gangster; wa... pui.
defence; eeyer...

attack of cowboy; [sound of horse]
defence; siam siam siam.

you know mr tan do the indian,
the sound damn xiang.
dhen.
he do the defence of chinese warrors damn ghey.
LOLL.

after that public speaking talk.
x.x
i go present, never do preparation.
sb ps.
dhen take bus home.
LOLL.

I learned a lot of things.

Qualities of a leader;
1. Responsible.
2. Resilient.
3. Respectful.
4. 100% commitment.
5. Humble (Role Model)
6. Motivator.
7. Integrity
8. Confident
9. Positive mindset
10. Teamwork.

lols.
thanks ms siti, mr darren ng and mr joshua tan.

i learnt alot.
:x.
had fun too.

love,