"Stop and Stare" - One Republic.

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What u need, what u need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see...

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so fast.
one week has passed, with its sorrows and joys(:
so stressful, finishing up the work at late night, waking up to feel like sleeping again, to be almost late one day.
as usual, i got a load of work again.
somehow, the mid-year is coming close.
and, my fears deepen.

today had history test.
it was easier then what i thought.
serious >;l
freaky thoughts.

in english,
somehow i had nothing better to do.
i thought of the past again,
the past i left behind and thought i could get over it, but i can't.
it just stays there, untouched.

i touched it.
inflicted pain on myself.
i deserve it? maybe.

Suddenly, my mind became brimmed with thoughts of the past.
I can't leave it.
Whenever i thought about it, i'll cry.
I nearly cried there and then.
I just stopped myself from crying.

Somebody said that, being happy is me.
but i'm not.

maybe, that person still doesn't understand me.
can't blame him.
at least mary knows, and feels.

i'm in a turbulentic moood.
once i'm have free time to myself, i'll think of the past again.

I hate to admit it,
but i'm missing you.

i miss the sweet times we had,
the bitter taste when we had quarrels,
the moments we had, chatting on the phone and all,
i just can't forget.

Why is it so hard to forget?
Memories ought to be erased and forgotten, right?

maybe its just wishful thinking on my part that we could be back the same way.

things has already changed,
nothing can be the same every again,
i understand that,
but i still can't help but hope that things will revert to the times of yesteryear.

I used to believe in promises.
I used to believe that friendships can be everlasting.
but ..
i don't think so.

maybe it's all for the best, i shall leave you with your life then.
sorry for intruding when i shouldn't have,
hurting myself more when i got in deeper.
the hurt just goes on and on.

do you know,
i can't just listen to a song that we once liked together, and don't remember?
i can't just leave it alone.

hais.

It's so superficial.
I'm not happy.
wo zhen de bu kai xin D:

I just close my eyes and pretend that it didn't happen to me, didn't affect me.
All i can do is just to smile and pretend that nothing happened.
Pretend that it's not hurting me.
Pretend that nothing happened.

I smile, because, i want others to be happy,
I fool around, and i am not ashamed of it, because, it makes people happy.

It's just a fake smile, from a empty heart.

Inside me,
is something that you'll never understand or realize.

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I love my friends lahhhhxz.
huaiyue gave me a cute dolphin ruler ^^ and a wallet? (:
hnin gave me a love mugggg ^^
jean, yuliahh, weexin sun nu and shi li sun nu gave me something like a tag, damn nice lahh ^^.

ohyeah, today chinese watch CJ7, hahas, mdm tan buy the CJ7 toy, omggg, it resembles me of wugui lahhh, cute little thing.