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somehow, i went back to read on,
and read and read and read on.
i can't help it.
it's my life.
i miss the times, we had together,
a full threesome,
a real friendship.
now its seems so dreamy,
everything is gone..

honesty,
what is to be honest?
i can't even be honest with my own feelings,
how honest am i?
no idea.
i don't want you to know how i feel,
i just want you to be happy,
that's all.
nothing else matters more to me,
than my friends(:
i'll never do anything that could potentially hurt my friends,
hurt me yes,
hurt my friends no.

-xQUOTE,

Love is..

Something so sweet,
so dear, so entrusting,
so faithful, so confident
at the start..

But yet something so bitter,
so distant, so envious,
so fearful, so casting,
at the end..

When it ends..
tears are the thing that accompanies with it
laughters are the ones that dies out
smiles are the ones that are no longer genuine
fears are the ones filling one's life

jealousy is the feeling that one feels at all times
melancholy is what one goes through
memories are the ones that haunt her
places where they had went before,
are the ones that always surround her

movies ..
are longed watched alone
her hands..
are no longer tightly held
her tears..
are no longer wiped away by another hand
her sadness..
no one else would feel the same as her
her wordless presence..
could no longer be felt

安静
只剩下钢琴陪我弹了一天
睡着的大提琴　安静的旧旧的

我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道　你没有舍不得

你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我　也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开

你要我说多难堪
我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份
包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多
我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开
我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份
安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你
是因为我太爱你



请你不要再折磨我，若以后真的没有机会再次与你在一起，你能不能就对我坦白地说我们之间是不可能的呢？真心爱着一个人的我，却不能与他在一起。另一个真心爱着我的人，却不能得到我。这，莫非就是所谓的‘爱情’吗？以前我并没有真心地去向你表达我对你的爱意，现在却只能以眼泪来表达我对你的思念。这种行为，也是因‘爱情’而有的吧？每晚都睡不着觉的我，也是因为忘不掉你而这样的，这也是‘爱情’带了的一种折磨吗？难道，自己眼睁睁地看着你与另一位女孩在一起，我就会好过吗？这，莫非就是爱情。爱情，使我曾经为他哭泣而感到悲哀的原故，使我痛苦地看着他折磨自己，使我默默地等着他的简讯，使我傻傻地越陷越深。就只为了爱情，而奋不顾身地为他付出一切，为他哭肿了眼睛，为他做出了许多使人惊讶的事；为他忍气吞声，为他而开始感到害怕，为他而失眠，为他而沮丧。这些，都是为了爱情吗？都是为了待在他的身边，而做过的蠢事吗? 没了你，我该怎么办.. 我该怎么办..？

For those things that are mine,
they will be mine.
While for those that doesn't belong to me,
I'll have to let them go.

爱情是不能勉强的，最终痛苦的还是自己。
人要懂得放开，因为有句话说：
“旧的不去，新的不来”

若人老是对已经有了结局的事物一一不忘；
人就不能往前走。

反正，人生是要告个段落的，
一切事物，都不能一起‘带过去’

You can choose to forget me,
but you can't choose to say that
"I forbid you to be in love with me"
..

june holidays seem so short,
first week preparing for trip,
second week gone for trip,
third week sick,
fourth week slack.

hahas, now going to chiong homework le, buai(: