unfair.
so unfair.
how could you be like this?
what do you treat me as?
...
i'm still a toy.
a toy for your own amusement.
want entertainment, playplay with it.
don't want liao, ditch it.
right?
have you ever considered my feelings?
how can you just do that?
how can you be so selfish?
how can you only think of yourself?
whatever happened to your inner apathy?
nevermind, i'm so disappointed in you right now.
there's nothing left to say to you.
since, i'm nothing to you.
just something that you can pick up and ditch
a disposable toy.


nevermind, it's okay.
i can live through it.
i can survive without you.
i don't need you.
get off.

changes.
have my voice changed without me knowing it?
weird.
it's like..
i don't sense any difference.
i thought its because we never talked for 9 months,
who knows,
it's really me who changed.

last time i used to be more crazy.
weird knowing that.
cause i'm already considered quite crazy.

i did a uber stupid thing.
i walked into the popular store to look for a nice wrapping paper.
ended up glancing at gifts.
then go counter,
pay money.
then i only realized i wasn't penniless, i had the 15dollars voucher.
-.- lmao lor.
going back home was like saying, felicia, you idiot.

in tution.
evelyn, eileen, huijia and ryan were making fun of my name.
felicia stands for happiness.
felicia, the shortform for felicity.
the most rofl-ing part about it all is that it's such a joke.
i'm no longer happy.
i lost the happiness, somehow, somewhere, i don't know where to retrieve it all back now.

life is such a joke.
"If you love somebody, let them go.."
i wonder which stupid bugger invented that stupid sentence.
cause it only brought about hurt, and more hurt, and hurting everybody.
if you love somebody, let them go.. and they will return when they are meant to be yours.
but what ever happens when you're not aware that that person likes you, and you end up letting them go, only to wait for years to find out that they liked you too, and that you had spent the last few years finding a partner, when the partner you were destined to be was just right infront of you?
how dumb.
what a joke.

happynationalday.