Reflections again =)

Looks like I'm gonna be pretty addicted to this *Reflections- thingy . Cuz all I do is to write out my reflections .

So far , i been trying my best to be myself and not just a nobody who just accepts everything for herself .

Talking about studies =(( . Wahhh ! . Been slacking a lot . Chinese i dropped to number 4 again . Frm number 4 to 11 to 4 again . I really hate being number 4 . Four in chinese is death , you know . Very bad luck one . No wonder I recently so suay lorh . Kidding =p .

English number 3 . But i really hope my english can improve by leaps and bounds to maybe a better rank and not decrease . Maths I'm getting bad results as usual so maybe since its the weekends , i ought to practise more and study harder? Science quite okay . Considering that I got 63 , its not as bad as it sounds . I used to be a avg. like 50+ . So its considered a bonus as well .

My results sound nice but they are not really how they seem . In fact , the competition seems to get tenser by the days the Eoy comes . You see , if you improved by one mark or two , your rank can move up dramatically leh .

Okay . My health is not really very good . Tuesday I started being sick , even vomited on wed .. but I'm getting better liaos . No need to worry lah . Just a sore throat left .

Someone said that I been a bit moody since wednesday . Maybe .. Its' just the atmosphere and the pressure on my studies that affects my health and me . I am kinda caught between studying and sleeping cuz I have to study sumtimes late in the night . But I promise , I make sure I sleep better kayys? Zhihui , dun worry about me lahs =p . I'm perfectly healthy and jumping , ain I ? lol .

Been thinking more and more often . Argh , I dunno what to write now . How come after smthing happen , someppl can remain so calm and collected . While when it comes to grades , ppl get nervous but the people who deserve the marks who studied real hard lose to others who never even bothered to study at all . Whats' the point , actually .. Not blaming ppl but its just what I'm thinking lahs . If you get a real high mark , your first reaction will either be calm or be like, normal like nothing had happened at all right before asking for other ppl's marks and sneering at them for their lousy results? Sigh . The world is made of mysterious things , really .

So , as I'm typing , the fan is blowing my food cold and I gotta eat it . I think I got a crush but I'm not sure . Hai hai hai . This matter have gone on for so many mths liao .

About audition , i started playing , currently lvl 4 and I stopped liao to study .

Thank gawd for our teachers who bothered to go through the chapters and exam format to us . Brillant of them ain it ?

Mr Foo is not tht bad actually , quite okay . He tries to teach us though I smtimes even if he explained it to me a thousand tymes I also cnnot figure it out .

So,todays' the last day of my freedom . at 0900 , I gotta study liaos .

So Buh=Bye .

-Felicia .