nothing much to post here, due to being very exhausted, in need of sleep and stuffs.

amazed at people's ability to stay up all night and be happy all day.

you might think it's sarcasm, but it isn't.

so tired of faking a smile all day long, joking around, finding trouble, bullying people to feel not alone in this sterotypical world.

so tired of pretending that everything's alright, nothing's wrong with hurtful remarks tossed daily because of being a smartass and all that, it hurts alright

worse comes when you're feeeling down and something seems to make you even more down.

i wanna cry, breakdown, shout and scream it all ..

i tried.
doesn't work.

it used to,
why not now.

fat girls have low self esteem.
so?
big deal?
what's the point?
what the fuck are you trying to imply.
not happy siboh, get out singapore la.
go america, more obese children,
get fuckingly used to it.

you think i want to be fat?
go figure.
stop fucking use excuses like: Fat girls are hornier.
which is not true or whatsoever,
you're not very thin skinny pole youreself,
so what the fuck are you doing,
complaining about other people.
you have no rights to do that.
it's so fucking discrimating.
so what if we're fat?
big deal?
fat jiu fat la.
at the most dun stead one luh.
whoever stead you sure confirm die de la.
fucker.
posting threads about fat girls,
like you're one big muscular and handsome guy.
please la.
give us all a break and stop commenting about such issues.
it simply tells people more or less about your attitude.

sorry for all the profanities used.
very fedup.
running a fever soon.

just so stressed.
so much homework,
can't finish die la.

i'm not certain if i want join the chinese thing.
it's good if i get in and help the school.
but ..
nevermind.
i shall try my best.
best that it will be.
hopefully.

i miss thy.
like hellxz.

i wonder how she and the rest doing

it's killing me.
staying in a classroom.
feeling like a freak.
and stuckup bitch.
whatever teacher ask i first one answer.
bloodyhell.
whatever you want i give it to you.
what about me?
i'm past caring about this issue.
nearly lost my history textbook cause lent to amanda who was sleeping.
=.=

maths tution
doing fine.
just that the blank-ness has returned.
i feel so blank.
like i donno how to do.
i'm tired.

novena..
was a nice place.
but ..
kinda dreaded it.

ryan and apple went to disiao me.
-.-
cause i ask my tution friend to help me what.
zzz.
what's so fun to tease.
just friends.

-.-"

felt lonely again.
very very lonely.
like the world is up to no good.
dunno.
a feeling that i haven felt in ages.

soon, changing blogskin.

and.
soon.

depression.

=="

well.
i can't say anything much here.

after stomping, going for a good nite's sleep.
exhausted.