updatee(:

okeh, this blog has definitely GONE rotted, or whatever.

dunno, can't help being depressed.
mye is like two teeeny weeks away, and there i go, failling my test again.
arghhh!

i cut my fringe on sunday.
maybe that could help me to be less hurt, and forget whatever that has happened.
it marks a new end to my old way of life, and a new beginning to a new start.

I want so badly to go back to habbo, to continue the old way of life.
but i can't.

The scene just repeats itself.
and now, great.
you don't even care about me right.
i'm just a TOY ...
a toy where when
you like it, you play with it,
when you angry, you bite it.
when u sad, you expect it to comfort you,
when it becomes far away from you, you throw it away.
forget it, i'm over it.

over it, am i?
Time doesn't heal, it only numbs the pain so that people will feel better.

I still remember the first time we met in habbo, the crazy days where we'll be like quarrelling and laughing at the same time, the mood swings, the webbie, everything.

you know, whenever i look out of the window, somehow i'll think of the past and start to cry?
i can't help it.
how pathetic.

event timelineee,
9apr, sports day - got myself sunburnt, and the nick SUNTAN.
10apr, chinese heritage tour - learnt alot, felt sick ):
11apr, body ach all over, support vb team.
17apr, visit to traders hotel - had a scrumptious spread(:

yes, i know i have issues,
but i don't need help D:

I smile, for the sake of smilling.
sometimes, i even smile extra loud and laugh extra hard to make myself hear that i'm smiling.
thats how sad it is.

I smile, to convince people not to worry about me,
no matter how hard the going gets, i'm still going to embark through it.

I smile, to convince myself that i'm really happy.
cause, sometimes i doubt whether i'm genuinuely happy.

I forgot how to smile, can anybody teach me? D:

i don't like the way things are now, can we reverse time? D:

wo bu kai xin D: