Broke

I'm heartbroken,
I don't know what to do,
what will help,
what will make me give up,

how to forget,
how to move on,
how to continue,
how to get over,
you...

i loved you like shit,
ridiculous right
it's all virtual stuff,
hnin was right,
i put too much emotion in habbo,
then fine,
i'm going to be icecold,
make sure nobody has a chance to hurt me ever again.

maybe,
i did fall in love,
with the wrong guy.
again.

i want to forget you so much,
to let you go,
to move on,
so much that it hurts even more.

i still remember my reaction,
numbed,
confused,
irritated,
emo-ed,
cried.
countless times because of you.

I was confused why u acted as a girl,
to ditch me? might be.
but what shit is tt to tell me tt breaking up now will be less hurting?

If you break up now, it would hurt, or even later, just hurt more,

why didn't you break up before?
Because wo men bu pei?
kfine, then i'll use the excuse to ditch guys.

i cried in sch when clarine amanda pooiyan and joyce played t or d and asked me about you.
i emo-ed in school, sit in one corner, stare at the azure blue sky and think about you.
if tts what you mean by less hurt, so be it.

i don't know why i still cry.
it's been 3days,
3fucking days,
on our one month wedding anniversary.
you don't care right.
obviously, i was the one who was thinking.
one sided love sucks.

i don't understand the turbulence in my heart,
why i still feel sad to hear you say all these,
why i feel reluctant to part our ways,
why i still wanna patch.
why i want to leave whenever you're there.

tell me what you wanna do now,
i seriously don't get it.
first we break,
kfine, i was the one who initatied the breakup,
but it's because of what you did,
secondly, i be friendly to other guys,
you bs,
what you mean sia.
they're my buddies what.

much as i hate to admit it,
i'm not your FELI anymore,
not yours,
you're not my JER anymore,
not mine,
i'm not whoever important to you already,
i'm not somebody important to you,
i'm not even a ex to you,
cause i practically don't exist in your world.
your world means so much.
i'm not anybody tt means something to you,
i'm just one of those girls,
one of those girls in this fucking stereotypical world.
who means next to nothing beside you.
right?

then, fine,
stop caring,
i'll forget.
i'll get over it.
i'll move on,
if tts what you want.
otherwise,
i don't know what am i supposed to do alr.

sorry janice,
i didn't know you damn stressed over pa,
me and jer tt prob hai ni le,
sorry
so sorry.

going out with hnin later,
hope my spirits will go up.

Bye.

Post

yeah its all true,
true as eggs are eggs,
and so is the colour of white.

pretended tt nth's wrong,
tried faking a smile,
tried to continue th facade;
tried to put on a strong front.
tried to pretend nth happened.
tried to forget,
tried to continue,
tried to move on,
tried not to cry.

whenever i see you,
i got a pressure rising up to cry.
whenever i think about us.

we used to be damn good friends.
how did it change,

i'm so fucking pissed with myself.

let it burn,
burn to ashes.

you used to care,
but now i'm just another one those burdens,
nevermind,
since you wan it tt way,
fine,

maybe,
i might not be around in '08.
maybe by tt time,
i may not be by your side.

felicia chen bi yuan,
where did your courage go.
where did your crap go.
where did your lameshit go.
where did your hardowrk go.

it's all gone,

i'm not motivated,
i dun dare to soar.

I don't want to know how much you hate me,
I just want to know how much you love me.

it applies for both her and him,

i miss your jokes,
i miss you.
i miss your cheerfulness,
i miss you by my side,
i'm scared of somebody snatching you away from my side,
i wanna be with you.
no matter wht you look like,
no matter wht obstacles,
one thing i'm confirm is,
ily.

ytd pretended.
act-ed enthu about giveaways,
when i'm nt interested,

just to avoid,
just to forget
just to ignore,

had fun thanks to jiejin.

chatted with ryan and hongzheng,
lols,
they're sweet.
ryan is terrible horrible vegetable,
hong zheng is sweet.
LOL.

i feel hungry,
but i don't wanna eat.
i wanna slim,
i might try bullmic,
i might try anaemic.
its just a lil finger right,
but i can't bear to.

hai.
let me fake enthu with sylvest later,
-acts robotic.
Hi. I'm Robot099, Type home for my functions.
1. Move
2. Dance.
3. Wave
4. Hammer.
5. Torture.

sadistically happy,
this th life i wanted, right?

yeah its all true,
true as eggs are eggs,
and so is the colour of white.

pretended tt nth's wrong,
tried faking a smile,
tried to continue th facade;
tried to put on a strong front.
tried to pretend nth happened.
tried to forget,
tried to continue,
tried to move on,
tried not to cry.

whenever i see you,
i got a pressure rising up to cry.
whenever i think about us.

we used to be damn good friends.
how did it change,

i'm so fucking pissed with myself.

let it burn,
burn to ashes.

you used to care,
but now i'm just another one those burdens,
nevermind,
since you wan it tt way,
fine,

maybe,
i might not be around in '08.
maybe by tt time,
i may not be by your side.

felicia chen bi yuan,
where did your courage go.
where did your crap go.
where did your lameshit go.
where did your hardowrk go.

it's all gone,

i'm not motivated,
i dun dare to soar.

I don't want to know how much you hate me,
I just want to know how much you love me.

it applies for both her and him,

i miss your jokes,
i miss you.
i miss your cheerfulness,
i miss you by my side,
i'm scared of somebody snatching you away from my side,
i wanna be with you.
no matter wht you look like,
no matter wht obstacles,
one thing i'm confirm is,
ily.

ytd pretended.
act-ed enthu about giveaways,
when i'm nt interested,

just to avoid,
just to forget
just to ignore,

had fun thanks to jiejin.

chatted with ryan and hongzheng,
lols,
they're sweet.
ryan is terrible horrible vegetable,
hong zheng is sweet.
LOL.

i feel hungry,
but i don't wanna eat.
i wanna slim,
i might try bullmic,
i might try anaemic.
its just a lil finger right,
but i can't bear to.

hai.
let me fake enthu with sylvest later,
-acts robotic.
Hi. I'm Robot099, Type home for my functions.
1. Move
2. Dance.
3. Wave
4. Hammer.
5. Torture.

sadistically happy,
this th life i wanted, right?

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You Are an Okay Student

You know how to get by school, but your heart isn't always in it. Motivation is a problem for you. Maybe you need to study something more exciting!

Are You a Good Student?

What Felicia Means

F is for Fashionable E is for Elitist L is for Lucky I is for Important C is for Confused I is for Insane A is for Altruistic

What Does Your Name Mean?

You Should Be A Capricorn

What's good about you: hard working and ambitious, you're practically a guaranteed success What's bad about you: you can be unforgiving toward people who fail you In love: you're very picky, but extremely devoted to the one you choose In friendship, you're: likely to be a good friend but expect a lot in return Your ideal job: rock climber, sculptor, or practitioner of black magic Your sense of fashion: preppy and put together You like to pig out on: meat and potatoes

What Sign Should You Be?

Your Envy Quotient: 36%

You are an occasionally envious person, but jealousy doesn't usually get the better of you. You're wise enough to know that envy feels horrible - and does nothing to improve your life. A little jealousy is normal: so go ahead and let yourself feel it. But don't let it bum you out!

How Much Envy Do You Have?

Men See You As: Not a Challenge

When you're in love, you lay it all out on the line And while men do appreciate your honesty... Do you ever wonder if you're being a little too available? Pull back a little! He'll be wanting you even more.

Do Men Find You a Challenge?

Guys Like That You're Charming

You're the girl most guys can't get out of their heads Even if they met you on a bad hair day :-) You just seem to "click" with everyone you meet So even if a guy forgets about you for a second... his friends haven't!

What Do Guys Like About You?

LOLLLLLL. HAD FUNNNN DOING ALL THESE CRAPPPPEHHHX.

3rd month anniversary with MUSH-ster.

ily lots, janice dear.

9 more days to first wedding month with dumbdumb ):

yes i'm smartypants and you're my cute dumbdumb >=)

You Are an Okay Student

You know how to get by school, but your heart isn't always in it. Motivation is a problem for you. Maybe you need to study something more exciting!

Are You a Good Student?

What Felicia Means

F is for Fashionable E is for Elitist L is for Lucky I is for Important C is for Confused I is for Insane A is for Altruistic

What Does Your Name Mean?

You Should Be A Capricorn

What's good about you: hard working and ambitious, you're practically a guaranteed success What's bad about you: you can be unforgiving toward people who fail you In love: you're very picky, but extremely devoted to the one you choose In friendship, you're: likely to be a good friend but expect a lot in return Your ideal job: rock climber, sculptor, or practitioner of black magic Your sense of fashion: preppy and put together You like to pig out on: meat and potatoes

What Sign Should You Be?

Your Envy Quotient: 36%

You are an occasionally envious person, but jealousy doesn't usually get the better of you. You're wise enough to know that envy feels horrible - and does nothing to improve your life. A little jealousy is normal: so go ahead and let yourself feel it. But don't let it bum you out!

How Much Envy Do You Have?

Men See You As: Not a Challenge

When you're in love, you lay it all out on the line And while men do appreciate your honesty... Do you ever wonder if you're being a little too available? Pull back a little! He'll be wanting you even more.

Do Men Find You a Challenge?

Guys Like That You're Charming

You're the girl most guys can't get out of their heads Even if they met you on a bad hair day :-) You just seem to "click" with everyone you meet So even if a guy forgets about you for a second... his friends haven't!

What Do Guys Like About You?

LOLLLLLL. HAD FUNNNN DOING ALL THESE CRAPPPPEHHHX.

3rd month anniversary with MUSH-ster.

ily lots, janice dear.

9 more days to first wedding month with dumbdumb ):

yes i'm smartypants and you're my cute dumbdumb >=)

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blogging after ages.

bbq was fun.
got lost in the way.
thanks to my dear mummy, guna and moi.

first, we take wrong direction 189, go back bbinterchange.
dhen the basket busdriver say what, no such thing as JIN TAI PRI SCH
#$%&%(*^
dhen go all the way to the back to see directions.
got.
dhen board correct bus.
halfway i felt like vomiting.
dhen we stopped at opposite jin tai pri.
i fedup.
tot just walk infront
dhen the uncle laugh at us.
LAUGH-ed.
and we walk back, walkwalk finally reach
and we bloody hell got lost there
-.-
LOST FOR 3 FUCKING HOURS.
record siaa.
dhen call angie and huaiyue hp's like siaos.
dhen saw jieyi they all follow.
dhen go there.
deliver prezzie,
went to do free labour.

started fanning the beehoon.
dhen fanning the chickenwings,
colouring butter on the hotdogs.
dhen talked to david, angie's bro.
who was complaining about his workplace de aunty.
LOL.
yeah, during dinnertime.
i and him watch la bi xiao xin de trip to the art gallery.
lol. so funny.
xiao xin so horny.
we laughed like siao kias.
that time the rest went to playground.
dhen ate.
dhen go home.
lol.

NO AFFFFAIRS. [THIS IS FOR A ESPECIALLY PEEKING TANHUIMIN],
dun luanluan shuo luh.

Kena alot incidents in holidays.
let's see.

- scalded hand accidently.
- cried alot of times.
- sleep while crying.
- stay up late night staring at the celling and stuffs.
- leg suddenly bended over and fell 2times on the same spot.
- chop chilli, until nearly burn eyes [nearly kena blind]
- pon-ed netball for one week [coach gave one week leave]

LOL, left alot stuff.
- Schoolbooks haven buy finish.
- Haven do practice.
- Haven finish cooking classes on monday.
- Haven do chi hw [ i promise within the week]

and,
today.

I GOT A XMAS GIFT.
LOLLL.
sound weird
but true.

my mom bought me a plastic wrapped snowman, inside got sweets and it's a piggybank >=)
first gift since primary5, when she bought the sweet-sounding melodilic hellokitty before i got lost. When i got lost, i tot she went home, so i dunnoo how to cross road go home, lucky got aunty help me cross road go home.
when i went home, kena scolding ==" for leaving w/h permission LOLL.
dhen my mom was angry for a week.

hai. talked to ryan [ryler in habbo], damn funneh
we're like two opposites.
i'm fat chubby and spectactled and short,
his thin no-specs and tall -> 183cm!!!
190 -> LEEKUANYEW.
185 -> GOHCHOKTONG

YOU KNOWWWW? >:(
and a lot differences in us.
and similarities.
funny luh.
creepy and weird.
but exciting.

:D

blogging after ages.

bbq was fun.
got lost in the way.
thanks to my dear mummy, guna and moi.

first, we take wrong direction 189, go back bbinterchange.
dhen the basket busdriver say what, no such thing as JIN TAI PRI SCH
#$%&%(*^
dhen go all the way to the back to see directions.
got.
dhen board correct bus.
halfway i felt like vomiting.
dhen we stopped at opposite jin tai pri.
i fedup.
tot just walk infront
dhen the uncle laugh at us.
LAUGH-ed.
and we walk back, walkwalk finally reach
and we bloody hell got lost there
-.-
LOST FOR 3 FUCKING HOURS.
record siaa.
dhen call angie and huaiyue hp's like siaos.
dhen saw jieyi they all follow.
dhen go there.
deliver prezzie,
went to do free labour.

started fanning the beehoon.
dhen fanning the chickenwings,
colouring butter on the hotdogs.
dhen talked to david, angie's bro.
who was complaining about his workplace de aunty.
LOL.
yeah, during dinnertime.
i and him watch la bi xiao xin de trip to the art gallery.
lol. so funny.
xiao xin so horny.
we laughed like siao kias.
that time the rest went to playground.
dhen ate.
dhen go home.
lol.

NO AFFFFAIRS. [THIS IS FOR A ESPECIALLY PEEKING TANHUIMIN],
dun luanluan shuo luh.

Kena alot incidents in holidays.
let's see.

- scalded hand accidently.
- cried alot of times.
- sleep while crying.
- stay up late night staring at the celling and stuffs.
- leg suddenly bended over and fell 2times on the same spot.
- chop chilli, until nearly burn eyes [nearly kena blind]
- pon-ed netball for one week [coach gave one week leave]

LOL, left alot stuff.
- Schoolbooks haven buy finish.
- Haven do practice.
- Haven finish cooking classes on monday.
- Haven do chi hw [ i promise within the week]

and,
today.

I GOT A XMAS GIFT.
LOLLL.
sound weird
but true.

my mom bought me a plastic wrapped snowman, inside got sweets and it's a piggybank >=)
first gift since primary5, when she bought the sweet-sounding melodilic hellokitty before i got lost. When i got lost, i tot she went home, so i dunnoo how to cross road go home, lucky got aunty help me cross road go home.
when i went home, kena scolding ==" for leaving w/h permission LOLL.
dhen my mom was angry for a week.

hai. talked to ryan [ryler in habbo], damn funneh
we're like two opposites.
i'm fat chubby and spectactled and short,
his thin no-specs and tall -> 183cm!!!
190 -> LEEKUANYEW.
185 -> GOHCHOKTONG

YOU KNOWWWW? >:(
and a lot differences in us.
and similarities.
funny luh.
creepy and weird.
but exciting.

:D