Earth Hour 2009

Earth hour 2009, what a parody. It's a monumental event for earth lovers.
It's part of conserving the earth. But does it really matter, now?
It's only one hour.

At the maximum, it's just knowing whether HUMANS are ready to HELP earth? Such a effort is meaningless. It only helps some people who want to save electricity bills from exploding for one hour who takes it as a excuse.
But have we ever considered the need of Earth?! It seems more of a join-in-if-you-want-to.

Ohplease. Just how many people you can be surrounded by and they can proudly say that they switched off all their lights, plus that their family was supportive of their decision to switch off lights. Yes they are, but limited.

Some feel that just off-ing at least one light is enough to prove their judgement.
Is it really conserving earth? It feels more like it's just a ploy on people's part to delay the global warming effect of El Nino on Earth. But actually, how long can this be delayed? A day? A month? ... or at the maximum, one year?!

Earth will still have to experience global warming. We humans are not doing enough to save Earth. You can just simply walk, and see a load of rubbish on the walkway downstairs, full of advertisments lying on the pavement and people just rush off to whatever they are doing. Is that CARING for EARTH? no.

I felt agitated when i saw some people who claim to be environmentalists do not even bother to do that as well. If so, is the name claim fake? What a practical joke.

"The grass always looked greener on the other side."

"The grass always looked greener on the other side."

I guess most of you have heard of it, just how many of you have actually firsthand experienced it yourself? I did, and i feel such a joke.

It's ridiculous how i have always expected myself to be lousy and negatively minded about my results, that it is not good enough, i have done badly, results that really made me wanna cry. I did this alot of times, only to get reprimandation from other people, whose results were not better off either, or in some cases, worse.

It makes me feel very bad, when i do that and they really can't help but mind, cause their results is lousy than mine. I checked out on the website and the truth dawned on me. I am a neurotic perfectionist who had low self esteem. Sure, is that a excuse? I think not.

One moment, it might seem that some others are excelling better in other subjects than others, but technically, all humans are weak right? As in, every one of us have weaknesses right?! Yes, i guess so. But that thought NEVER ever OCCURED to me.

All i was thinking, how could i?! how could i have performed so badly? And slowly i started to realize, yes stress and pressure might be factors leading to excellence in studies however, most importantly, is whether ultimately YOU TRY YOUR BEST.

I always realize that, I don't need comparison. I don't need competition for motivation. I just need my own ideals to strive for. And that is ultimate perfection, as a ultimatum, which you might say, is IMPOSSIBLE, but i can try right?! I don't have to be one of the top people, which i would love to be, but SO LONG MY CONSCIENCE IS CLEAR, I'm genuinely CONTENTED (not forced by other people) with my grades, and I DID MY BEST - that is enough. For me and my parents, yes.

I'm not going to be one of those girls who act like they are stupid and end up acing the examinations. It's just a facade, it's stupid. Wake up. So what if you're stupid? Are you still human? Yes. You think you're making people feel better if you're stupid as well? No. You think you can fit in with the less academically-inclined people? Maybe yes. But eventually, they will find out your true colours and feel even more hurt that you have purposely done that to them. Sure, your intentions are good, but is that wise? You end up underminding your potential, limiting yourself and even find yourself the object of gossip at the end of the day. IS IT WORTH IT?

I doubt so, although ironically, i have somehow became one of these girls without knowing. It is revolting to me and very extremely disgusting to digest this fact. I hate being the source of motivation. I'm not bragging here, but i seriously dislike attention. I just want to do my best, and thats' it. I don't want to get distracted by competition. Yes, i admit that i hate losing. But technically, at the end of the day, what matters is what you learn, not anything else. Whether you are top of the leaderboard in school, is not important.

Yeah, and thats' me yakking away nonsense.
Bye.

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happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to felicia,
the pathetic noob who ever lived.

sorry, currently in a very damn sore mood.
somebody, regarded as my DEAR-EST sister, totally spoiled my good mood.
no prizes for guessing right.

THANKS&MUCHAPPRECIATION to:

UNCLE BREAD!!!
Alvin the chipmunk ;]
Jasmine (Emo-partner)
KJJ
Yvonne<3
Catherine darling (moco ^^)
CLARINE (nu er!)
HuiJia
Brenda
Hongzheng
Hnin Hnin
Jingteck
Asyraf
Sebby
Joewie
Stealthy
Yuliah
Elaine
Asvini
Kirin
Guna
Yiimei
Jieyi
Angie
Huaiyue
Weexin
Inshirah
CLASS 4A 2009
Mary
Hidayah
Paulene
Thiri
Dexter
Lutfi (who keep stealing my members)
MUMMY!
Janice
DADDY!
Sungyi
Sylvest!
Keming
Jason
Joel
Fuhua guys from 4NA in mon's tuition;D
Eileen
Nithya
VICKY DARLING!

Arigato! ^^ loves.

I took a wish.
I'll update the birthday cake pictures.
It was scrumptious.
:]
Black forest siol!!!
^_^

no prezzies, but will be getting them tmrw.
;]

happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to felicia,
the pathetic noob who ever lived.

sorry, currently in a very damn sore mood.
somebody, regarded as my DEAR-EST sister, totally spoiled my good mood.
no prizes for guessing right.

THANKS&MUCHAPPRECIATION to:

UNCLE BREAD!!!
Alvin the chipmunk ;]
Jasmine (Emo-partner)
KJJ
Yvonne<3
Catherine darling (moco ^^)
CLARINE (nu er!)
HuiJia
Brenda
Hongzheng
Hnin Hnin
Jingteck
Asyraf
Sebby
Joewie
Stealthy
Yuliah
Elaine
Asvini
Kirin
Guna
Yiimei
Jieyi
Angie
Huaiyue
Weexin
Inshirah
CLASS 4A 2009
Mary
Hidayah
Paulene
Thiri
Dexter
Lutfi (who keep stealing my members)
MUMMY!
Janice
DADDY!
Sungyi
Sylvest!
Keming
Jason
Joel
Fuhua guys from 4NA in mon's tuition;D
Eileen
Nithya
VICKY DARLING!

Arigato! ^^ loves.

I took a wish.
I'll update the birthday cake pictures.
It was scrumptious.
:]
Black forest siol!!!
^_^

no prezzies, but will be getting them tmrw.
;]

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i'm frightened.
because when i dream, im consistently thinking about the next action that im going to take, the homework i have left, what am i going to do the next day.

im in self-denial.
i know whatever she says is true.
but i just can't get my mind to get to it.

whats going on in my head not even i know.
am i alien?
maybe.

i'm frightened.
because when i dream, im consistently thinking about the next action that im going to take, the homework i have left, what am i going to do the next day.

im in self-denial.
i know whatever she says is true.
but i just can't get my mind to get to it.

whats going on in my head not even i know.
am i alien?
maybe.

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A Creed to Live By
Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others,
It is because we are different that each of us is special.

Don't set your goals by what other people deem important,
Only you know what is best for you.

Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart
Cling to that as you would your life, for without them life is meaningless.

Don't let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or the future,
By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life.

Don't give up when you still have something to give
Nothing is really over … until the moment you stop trying.

Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect,
It is the fragile thread that binds us to each other.

Don't be afraid to encounter risks,
It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.

Don't shut love out of your life by saying it's impossible to find,
The quickest way to receive love is to give love.

The fastest way to lose love is to hold on too tightly,
And the best way to keep love is to give it wings.

Don't dismiss your Dreams. To be without dreams is to be without hope.
To be without hope is to be without purpose.

Don't run through life so fast that you forget where you've been,
But also know where you're going.
Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored every step of the way.

--

Some interesting facts:

A day without sunshine is like, night.

On the other hand, you have different fingers.

42.7 percent of all statistics are made up on the spot.

99 percent of lawyers give the rest a bad name.

I feel like I'm diagonally parked in a parallel universe.

Honk if you love peace and quiet.

Remember, half the people you know are below average.

He who laughs last thinks slowest.

Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.

The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.

I drive way too fast to worry about cholesterol.

Support bacteria. They're the only culture some people have.

Monday is an awful way to spend 1/7 of your week.

A clear conscience is usually the sign of a bad memory.

Change is inevitable, except from vending machines.

Get a new car for your spouse. It'll be a great trade!

Plan to be spontaneous tomorrow.

Always try to be modest, and be proud of it!

If you think nobody cares, try missing a couple of payments.

How many of you believe in telekinesis? Raise my hand...

OK, so what's the speed of dark?

How do you tell when you're out of invisible ink?

If everything seems to be going well, you have obviously overlooked something.

When everything is coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.

Hard work pays off in the future. Laziness pays off now.

Everyone has a photographic memory. Some just don't have film.

If Barbie is so popular, why do you have to buy her friends?

Eagles may soar, but weasels don't get sucked into jet engines.

What happens if you get scared half to death twice?

I used to have an open mind but my brains kept falling out.

I couldn't repair your brakes, so I made your horn louder.

Why do psychics have to ask you for your name?

Inside every older person is a younger person wondering what the hell happened.

A Creed to Live By
Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others,
It is because we are different that each of us is special.

Don't set your goals by what other people deem important,
Only you know what is best for you.

Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart
Cling to that as you would your life, for without them life is meaningless.

Don't let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or the future,
By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life.

Don't give up when you still have something to give
Nothing is really over … until the moment you stop trying.

Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect,
It is the fragile thread that binds us to each other.

Don't be afraid to encounter risks,
It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.

Don't shut love out of your life by saying it's impossible to find,
The quickest way to receive love is to give love.

The fastest way to lose love is to hold on too tightly,
And the best way to keep love is to give it wings.

Don't dismiss your Dreams. To be without dreams is to be without hope.
To be without hope is to be without purpose.

Don't run through life so fast that you forget where you've been,
But also know where you're going.
Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored every step of the way.

--

Some interesting facts:

A day without sunshine is like, night.

On the other hand, you have different fingers.

42.7 percent of all statistics are made up on the spot.

99 percent of lawyers give the rest a bad name.

I feel like I'm diagonally parked in a parallel universe.

Honk if you love peace and quiet.

Remember, half the people you know are below average.

He who laughs last thinks slowest.

Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.

The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.

I drive way too fast to worry about cholesterol.

Support bacteria. They're the only culture some people have.

Monday is an awful way to spend 1/7 of your week.

A clear conscience is usually the sign of a bad memory.

Change is inevitable, except from vending machines.

Get a new car for your spouse. It'll be a great trade!

Plan to be spontaneous tomorrow.

Always try to be modest, and be proud of it!

If you think nobody cares, try missing a couple of payments.

How many of you believe in telekinesis? Raise my hand...

OK, so what's the speed of dark?

How do you tell when you're out of invisible ink?

If everything seems to be going well, you have obviously overlooked something.

When everything is coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.

Hard work pays off in the future. Laziness pays off now.

Everyone has a photographic memory. Some just don't have film.

If Barbie is so popular, why do you have to buy her friends?

Eagles may soar, but weasels don't get sucked into jet engines.

What happens if you get scared half to death twice?

I used to have an open mind but my brains kept falling out.

I couldn't repair your brakes, so I made your horn louder.

Why do psychics have to ask you for your name?

Inside every older person is a younger person wondering what the hell happened.

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amazingly, time passes.

got back sucky results,
i swear to do better next time.

hardly touched holiday homework, but will be chionging them tmr and the next day, wooo!

march 21 right now,
4 more days,
filled with mixed feelings.

i kinda love being sweet sixteen,
and hate it at the same time.

judging from the astonished expressions on their faces,
i guess they all didn't bother enough.
just as usual.
just as well.
who am i?
just a nobody.

got bitten by mozzies this past week.
argh.
someday i'll invent some mosquito superrepellent in the blood.
or something.
mozzies are hateful.
they bite and bite and leave bigbigbig red sore spots.
):!!!
)))))))))):!


okay, i banged into the pillar
typical felicia.

and....

i forgot what i was about to say.
teeheehee.

i'll forget you.
someday.
somehow.
just now now.
fond memories still come out these days,
its still fresh in the memory how we used to be.
i loved those days where i could talk freely with you,
now no more.
it feels akward and strange at the same time,
halfway worried that somebody will decipher,
halfway tired of all these nonsense
scared to approach you,
not even daring to message you or have direct contact.

tears still brim out of my eyelids,
spouting out unnecessary feelings,
bringing out unbearable torture in the heart.

i'm sick of tired of being the one to stand there silently,
wait as you got embraced by some other person who didn't even know your existance.
i did hope that you'll once take notice,
but you did not.
did you ever felt how hesitant i was when i sms you,
how i was always scared of smsing you the wrong thing,
how i was always scared that i would run out of topics to talk to you about?
you think i was a natural conversalist?
no, i had to planplanplan, so that nothing would go wrong,
both of us would enjoy the conversation,
and the secret that still remains in my heart remains unknown.

i miss you.

amazingly, time passes.

got back sucky results,
i swear to do better next time.

hardly touched holiday homework, but will be chionging them tmr and the next day, wooo!

march 21 right now,
4 more days,
filled with mixed feelings.

i kinda love being sweet sixteen,
and hate it at the same time.

judging from the astonished expressions on their faces,
i guess they all didn't bother enough.
just as usual.
just as well.
who am i?
just a nobody.

got bitten by mozzies this past week.
argh.
someday i'll invent some mosquito superrepellent in the blood.
or something.
mozzies are hateful.
they bite and bite and leave bigbigbig red sore spots.
):!!!
)))))))))):!


okay, i banged into the pillar
typical felicia.

and....

i forgot what i was about to say.
teeheehee.

i'll forget you.
someday.
somehow.
just now now.
fond memories still come out these days,
its still fresh in the memory how we used to be.
i loved those days where i could talk freely with you,
now no more.
it feels akward and strange at the same time,
halfway worried that somebody will decipher,
halfway tired of all these nonsense
scared to approach you,
not even daring to message you or have direct contact.

tears still brim out of my eyelids,
spouting out unnecessary feelings,
bringing out unbearable torture in the heart.

i'm sick of tired of being the one to stand there silently,
wait as you got embraced by some other person who didn't even know your existance.
i did hope that you'll once take notice,
but you did not.
did you ever felt how hesitant i was when i sms you,
how i was always scared of smsing you the wrong thing,
how i was always scared that i would run out of topics to talk to you about?
you think i was a natural conversalist?
no, i had to planplanplan, so that nothing would go wrong,
both of us would enjoy the conversation,
and the secret that still remains in my heart remains unknown.

i miss you.

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back from ec.
tiring journey back.
have pictures from hike just now.
back still hurts, dunno is because of getting sweared at,
or from bending too much when sweeping.

I was shuqun's auntie for one day.
^^
sweep and mop the canteen area for ec.
haiz, contradicts.

it was fun while it lasted,
had fond memories with rosanne, jasmine, wenjun, daniel and all.
THANKS ALOT.

the childcare children were CUTEEEEEEEEEEE!
like hell.
damnnnn cute okay.
loved them.

lol, their reaction when i posed as a money?
ADORABLE.
they were there shouting MONKEY! got banana!

LOL ^^

the trail walk was long.
still okay.

PAPERMAKING COURSE WAS FUN.
FANTABULOUS.
:D
I learnt stuff.

and i got to bond with my ec members more ^^
yay!
:D

thou i hate mozzie.

back from ec.
tiring journey back.
have pictures from hike just now.
back still hurts, dunno is because of getting sweared at,
or from bending too much when sweeping.

I was shuqun's auntie for one day.
^^
sweep and mop the canteen area for ec.
haiz, contradicts.

it was fun while it lasted,
had fond memories with rosanne, jasmine, wenjun, daniel and all.
THANKS ALOT.

the childcare children were CUTEEEEEEEEEEE!
like hell.
damnnnn cute okay.
loved them.

lol, their reaction when i posed as a money?
ADORABLE.
they were there shouting MONKEY! got banana!

LOL ^^

the trail walk was long.
still okay.

PAPERMAKING COURSE WAS FUN.
FANTABULOUS.
:D
I learnt stuff.

and i got to bond with my ec members more ^^
yay!
:D

thou i hate mozzie.

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so what exactly happened to me the rest of the week after career fair?

I got back maths results.
I got back science results.

I LOVE CHEMISTRY.
^_^

Maths was a shitass job.
LOL.
As in, I know the ANSWERRRSS! Just that i couldn't answer it.
awwwwwwwwwwww.

Plus, i'm officially SICK.
Don't irritate me unless necessary.

We had speech.
My speech suckarse.
):
I talked too fast, and too slow too.
and i was nervous,
my entire paper went shaking.
):


i lost him.
who cares.

had ptm.
was damn boring.
the whole time i was smsing two people,
and it was like sms, wait awhile, another sms come in,
i was like omg, when will it end.
then i was hugging my two tbs.
my maths tb tore ):!


then, listen to mr tan's speech.
after that i went to talk with all my teachers.
typical same comments:
I think you could have done better.

-faint.
And i realize, my form teacher had a spelling mistake in my card.
weeee~ all humans make mistakes afterall.

I don't want to be a source of motivation.
It sucked, to know that everybody expects so much of you, and yet you don't know how much you can give them at all.
And you stress out yourself so much that you get ill almost half the time holidays are approaching, wth?! And holidays come with loads of work and you can't complete them, what a bloody waste?

Damn.
I'm sick.
):!

I hate life.
I HATE YOU.

I WANT TO SCORE A1S FOR MY SUBJECTS FOR MYE!
I'm DETERMINED.


One good thing that came from my results was,
I got the result i wanted to score for CH for the o levels.
what a joke.

I HATE HABBO TRADERS.
WHO BUY STUFF AND SELL THEM AT THE SAME PRICE?
Loser uh.


Bye,

so what exactly happened to me the rest of the week after career fair?

I got back maths results.
I got back science results.

I LOVE CHEMISTRY.
^_^

Maths was a shitass job.
LOL.
As in, I know the ANSWERRRSS! Just that i couldn't answer it.
awwwwwwwwwwww.

Plus, i'm officially SICK.
Don't irritate me unless necessary.

We had speech.
My speech suckarse.
):
I talked too fast, and too slow too.
and i was nervous,
my entire paper went shaking.
):


i lost him.
who cares.

had ptm.
was damn boring.
the whole time i was smsing two people,
and it was like sms, wait awhile, another sms come in,
i was like omg, when will it end.
then i was hugging my two tbs.
my maths tb tore ):!


then, listen to mr tan's speech.
after that i went to talk with all my teachers.
typical same comments:
I think you could have done better.

-faint.
And i realize, my form teacher had a spelling mistake in my card.
weeee~ all humans make mistakes afterall.

I don't want to be a source of motivation.
It sucked, to know that everybody expects so much of you, and yet you don't know how much you can give them at all.
And you stress out yourself so much that you get ill almost half the time holidays are approaching, wth?! And holidays come with loads of work and you can't complete them, what a bloody waste?

Damn.
I'm sick.
):!

I hate life.
I HATE YOU.

I WANT TO SCORE A1S FOR MY SUBJECTS FOR MYE!
I'm DETERMINED.


One good thing that came from my results was,
I got the result i wanted to score for CH for the o levels.
what a joke.

I HATE HABBO TRADERS.
WHO BUY STUFF AND SELL THEM AT THE SAME PRICE?
Loser uh.


Bye,

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went to career fair.
was in a bit of a rush as my thumbdrive was missing and panicked for a long while,
before realizing that i left it in the library in sch (so damnnit)

career fair was fun,
except for the fact that it was more for the adults than us teenagers.
met dex, eiv, dan, jieyi, jingteck and one girl (whose name is lemon, i read)
LOL.
interesting.

then there was one teens booth.
it was great!
4 magazines (one which i desperately needed, and the jan-mar issues of 2009)
woot.
plus a cute soft toy, notebook, yoghurt (first time O_O) and a SEVENTEENAGAIN movie tix for april.

was going to leave the tix for sis, cause i assume that it would be a waste of money if i went myself, but mom and dad suggested otherwise.

i feel like i'm gradually losing it,
in the pits due to something amiss,
missing something that i can't have,
yet don't feel like giving up,
just disappointment and sadness engulfing,
to the deepest corner of the heart.


i think, like what hnin said,
i'm constrained and restricted to my thoughts in blogging,
considering just putting it as a journal soon.

and ily.

went to career fair.
was in a bit of a rush as my thumbdrive was missing and panicked for a long while,
before realizing that i left it in the library in sch (so damnnit)

career fair was fun,
except for the fact that it was more for the adults than us teenagers.
met dex, eiv, dan, jieyi, jingteck and one girl (whose name is lemon, i read)
LOL.
interesting.

then there was one teens booth.
it was great!
4 magazines (one which i desperately needed, and the jan-mar issues of 2009)
woot.
plus a cute soft toy, notebook, yoghurt (first time O_O) and a SEVENTEENAGAIN movie tix for april.

was going to leave the tix for sis, cause i assume that it would be a waste of money if i went myself, but mom and dad suggested otherwise.

i feel like i'm gradually losing it,
in the pits due to something amiss,
missing something that i can't have,
yet don't feel like giving up,
just disappointment and sadness engulfing,
to the deepest corner of the heart.


i think, like what hnin said,
i'm constrained and restricted to my thoughts in blogging,
considering just putting it as a journal soon.

and ily.

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suffering from side-aches.
-.-
screw it.
painful neh.

due to excessive dehydration and lack of exercise (i deserve it i guess)
it hurts ):!

handphone no batt.
don't ask why.

tmr career fair ^^ wee.
plus, i'm suddenly suffering from saturday night fever again.
D:

I FEEL WEIRDDDDDD!

suffering from side-aches.
-.-
screw it.
painful neh.

due to excessive dehydration and lack of exercise (i deserve it i guess)
it hurts ):!

handphone no batt.
don't ask why.

tmr career fair ^^ wee.
plus, i'm suddenly suffering from saturday night fever again.
D:

I FEEL WEIRDDDDDD!

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-emos.

i almost black-out (or fainted) in pe ytd.
suddenly it felt like my world was spinning apart,
i only noticed people moving in and out,
then my eyes opened and closed out of consciousness,
one moment i knew what was going on, another moment, i wasn't sure.

some people cared and bothered enough to ask me how was i feeling and everything else.
i could only see specks of colour, nothing like a full picture.
i stood up and sat, rotating around each movement,
my movement weak and seemed like outta my control.

somehow, i felt better after resting.
disappointment, from the heart.

then, goback class.
looked for chem result, hope its true.
and hopeful for physics and maths (even thou i really screwed up maths)

EC, i'm looking forward to EC ^^
i'm lousy as a leader.

need to complete script plus, speech and ppt and f&n soon.

hmm, HOLIDAYS ARE COMING.

and i'm starting to miss people.
D: (not from sch duh, some close friends online/in real life that i couldn't set aside time to chat for) :/

i fell asleep awaiting the comp.
9pm all the way to 10pm.
13 hours.
bored crap lOl

finished one CHINESE BOOK BY MYSELF!
It was hard reading, cause i wasn't used to reading chinese books, more of english person here.
but I LIkED THE ENDING.
too bad i couldn't find the second book ):

some great news.
i'm going to change my font to a bigger one,
since lots of people have been commenting that they need to strain their eyes.

thats all for updates.
bye.

-emos.

i almost black-out (or fainted) in pe ytd.
suddenly it felt like my world was spinning apart,
i only noticed people moving in and out,
then my eyes opened and closed out of consciousness,
one moment i knew what was going on, another moment, i wasn't sure.

some people cared and bothered enough to ask me how was i feeling and everything else.
i could only see specks of colour, nothing like a full picture.
i stood up and sat, rotating around each movement,
my movement weak and seemed like outta my control.

somehow, i felt better after resting.
disappointment, from the heart.

then, goback class.
looked for chem result, hope its true.
and hopeful for physics and maths (even thou i really screwed up maths)

EC, i'm looking forward to EC ^^
i'm lousy as a leader.

need to complete script plus, speech and ppt and f&n soon.

hmm, HOLIDAYS ARE COMING.

and i'm starting to miss people.
D: (not from sch duh, some close friends online/in real life that i couldn't set aside time to chat for) :/

i fell asleep awaiting the comp.
9pm all the way to 10pm.
13 hours.
bored crap lOl

finished one CHINESE BOOK BY MYSELF!
It was hard reading, cause i wasn't used to reading chinese books, more of english person here.
but I LIkED THE ENDING.
too bad i couldn't find the second book ):

some great news.
i'm going to change my font to a bigger one,
since lots of people have been commenting that they need to strain their eyes.

thats all for updates.
bye.

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Life sucks.

I don't want anybody to CHALLENGE me at ANYTHING.
I don't want to COMPETE with anybody.
I just want to beat my own standards.
I just want to beat my own RECORDS.

Is that that tough?

I hate it when others use my grades as a BENCHMARK.
cause, i don't think i'm good enough.
My goals aren't idealistic enough,
and it's only STRESSING me up.

i hate to be PRESSURIZED.
cause right now im LETHARGIC,
and i miss my bed.

so, if you're reading it,
stop it please.

I wouldn't take your challenge seriously.
Cause losing doesn't matter to me anymore.
(Just that sucking in english hurts)

Life sucks.

I don't want anybody to CHALLENGE me at ANYTHING.
I don't want to COMPETE with anybody.
I just want to beat my own standards.
I just want to beat my own RECORDS.

Is that that tough?

I hate it when others use my grades as a BENCHMARK.
cause, i don't think i'm good enough.
My goals aren't idealistic enough,
and it's only STRESSING me up.

i hate to be PRESSURIZED.
cause right now im LETHARGIC,
and i miss my bed.

so, if you're reading it,
stop it please.

I wouldn't take your challenge seriously.
Cause losing doesn't matter to me anymore.
(Just that sucking in english hurts)

envy.

i never thought today will come to pass..
indeed it has.

THE DAY MY BAG BROKE O:!
(Like seriously, isn't a big deal but wdv.)

Omg, i like it okay! Yellow ^^. If you're one of those people from my class who saw me carry my bag using my bare hands to and fro every lesson, and is curious to find out why, read below:

The bag originally had one of the zip disconnected, then the second zip decided to join it, so it could go through but there would be holes -.-
(like if on purpose, yes, i assume)


CAN YOU LIKE BELIEVE IT?!

It declared independence and demanded to be retrenched from the job of carrying my books.

):! no salary okeh, expire so fast ):!

Got back el, hist, mt paper already.
TOTALLY SCREW UP JOB.

If you think i'm a arse for complaining, so be it.
I had enough of people comments and making sure that i am CONSIDERED NORMAL.

SCREW UP JOB 1:
English was bad.
Two passes in the class, and i failed.
I FAILED.
FAILED ..
Suddenly the thought of failure seems to be glooming over.
I never thought that i would fail english.
I always passed.
But right now, pass -> understatement of the year.
a brand new white record blemished by the slightest red mark.
talk about unbelievables.

Looks like i gotta get used to the prospect of failing.
The feeling is pure indifference.
I have no idea why.
It just doesn't affect me as i thought it would.
Shock, YES.
Fear, YES.
BUTTERFLIES IN STOMACH WHEN RESULTS ANNOUNCED, CHECK YES.
but,
.. I wasn't mournful.
I didn't shed a tear.
(if you understand what i mean)

This is coming from somebody who have never failed english, in primary or secondary school (sec sch pretty much confirmed, primary - never)

For school that is.
For tuition? Feh. Fail like cmi, cannot count already :D
You ask, worse result you ever gotten and why? 4/25, questions pure inferential, 10/10 difficulty level.

But i was disappointed. I expected better, and MUCH BETTER.
This paper cannot be considered hard or easy, it was just, I'll give it a 7 on a scale of 10 in difficulty level.

Why screw up, you are so near to passing, you shouldn't feel sad.
Right. Because due to my COCK-EYE-ness, I missed out qn 1c,
didn't do it, didn't get the mark (and it was a sure score qn).
One mark gone, and that would make my result 14/30.

I changed the question to my own words, 2m question -> 0m.
Patheticness => That would make me score at least 15/30, a pass mark.
God, can i just kill myself and get this over and done with already?

This is just the beginning, more is about to come.
-embrace the challenge.

I CAN DO IT ^^!


SCREW UP JOB 2:

Due to the abovementioned cockeye-ness, i did it again. I missed out one question which was 1m, which would make my score be 27/28 (attaining perfection 28/28 in the case of getting 1m extra from mr low for passing up classwork)

You might say, HEY, ARE YOU A BAKA (dummy)? YOU GOT SO HIGH AND YOU ARE WISHING YOU GOT HIGHER? WHAT A LOSER! Yeah. Perhaps. But it was due to my carelessness and cockeye ness that i didn't get the mark, therefore the unpleasantness.

But i love history ^^

JUSTIFICATION:
I am just kiasu. I'm worried for my ss which i'm convinced is a totally cmi thing, cause i screwed the thing up and caused me to cry D: I'm even convinced that i would be failing it. I HOPE I PASS. PLEASE MR ONG, LEMME PASS OKEH. I'll TRY TO SCORE IN SS IF YOU DO.

-pray to god, allah, buddha and whatever gods there are: PLEASEEEEEEEE!

SCREW UP JOB 3:

I changed my answers which resulted in a loss of 8 + 4 = 12m for mcq i suppose and another 5marks gone for naq. Did i mention it to you? I hate naqs ):!

..

Yeah, this is the end of today's blogpost.
):!
Bye.

HELLO.

-glooms.

WELCOME TO idk-this-weird-blog-name that i even forget.
:D

HIHI!

LOL, I'm mad.
-runs around.

Thought that it would be a first, to step in the unaware, tired of the light, so there i go.

AWARENESS IS THE FIRST STEP TO CHANGE.