Hurt

It didn't always matter because you were there.
It didn't used to hurt as much because you were there.
I didn't cared for such issues because you were there.
I mean what i say and do.

Believe me.

just that you never do,
never ever seem to believe me.
never ever seem to care.
never ever seem to love me.

i got nothing better else to say.

everytime it ends up with me crying. and nothing good ever happens out of it.
i tried my best to salvate everything, initating contact and trying to break out of the dark silence.

did you ever know,
that i'm scared i might lose you?

did you ever know,
i'm scared of cold lonely eerie silence?

anyway, it doesn't matter to you, so why am i mentioning it out?
you never gave me a reply.
you left me dang-ling alone in the thread which you created.
you just simply kill me off with your hurting words.

doesn't matter.

since you're not willing to continue, why should i be the stupid one to take up the needle and sew up the gaps?

"It takes two hands to clap, a minute to break off a everlasting relationship."
" You can repair a broken handphone, but can you ever repair a broken relationship? It will never be the same."

finished tests, results were generally alright except for chem.

I'm going to fail mathematics, disappoint everybody who have been there for me.

tmr camp.
going to treat it as a escape.
a escape away from the frank and everchanging reality.
to escape my worries and fears.
to get up on my two legs and start anew as nothing had ever happened.

just got convinced that i'm just a good-for-nothing.
i can't do everything right,
do everything to the best of my ability,
to love others wholeheartedly,
to prove my words true.

yes you might say, no matter what i still love you.

you know what? I stopp-ed believing in that.

stopp-ed being so stupid.
stopp-ed being so trustful.
stopp-ed being friendly, loving and nice.

cause i'm not me.

who am i?
can anybody tell me?

hao xiang duo lou jiu qu si le.

i wonder how death looks like.

bye.

Research on guys o:

chatting with joewie, douglas and sebby.
LOLLLL.
fun lei them.

I learnt some facts, lai, lemme share:


1) Do you know the relationship between your two eyes? They blink together, move together, cry together, see together and sleep together. Though they never see each other, friendship should be just like that. Life is hell without friends.

a) - Typing and copying that to the three people had different responses. One said: Cheem, Another said: Touching, Third one: Interesting.
b) - lemme explain. i was under the impression that all guys think the same, roughly the same that is.
c) - somebody, not saying who, gave me a example of my wrong theory.

Conclusion: All guys think differently :P

--


"There is no use in sticking on to a friendship which is half-broken because FRIENDSHIP takes two HANDS to CLAP .. , RESPECT the other's decision when it is right , like , maybe the friendship should break , just BREAK it and you are as FREE as a bird , i mean like , its no point in keeping a broken friendship, if the friend dunno how to APPRECIATE you , then its her PROBLEM .. Others will surely appreciate all the things you do for THEM!"


:D

Post

it's over.

never thought that it would end.
i thought, no matter what, i would just care for you, and we'll be forever tgt.
looks like it's ain true.
i'm putting too much effort to mantain this r/s ain i?

i'm tired.
i'm sick of it
sick and tired of faking a smile, acting like nothing's wrong, keeping your hurtful comments to my heart.
maybe we're just ain meant to be best of friends.
maybe it's just a waste of time and development space.

we never seem to meet.
whenever i go right, you go left
we keep quarrelling, or cold war.

i'm tired, and i hate to admit it, but it's dragging me down
have you ever considered that i might be busy.
have you ever wondered whether i cared for you?
have you ever pondered over me?
i wonder.

it's always a imbalance
either i put in too much, or you put in too much.
it never goes equal.

it's emotionally,
physically,
mentally,
getting worse.
by the days.
and hurting me.

yes i'm a pest,
i agree i can be obsessive sometimes.
a bit jealous of your buddies who you seem to love more
i just want to know more about you.
to care more about you.

yet it seems that our time is up.
i want to talk to you, continue the old times, but it's always no time, don't want, no mood.
i don't know what to say to you anymore,
what to talk to make it sounds unweird?
to make it sound normal?

i have no idea anymore.
enlighten me then.

wo ai ni.
i love you.
aishiteru.

it's over.

never thought that it would end.
i thought, no matter what, i would just care for you, and we'll be forever tgt.
looks like it's ain true.
i'm putting too much effort to mantain this r/s ain i?

i'm tired.
i'm sick of it
sick and tired of faking a smile, acting like nothing's wrong, keeping your hurtful comments to my heart.
maybe we're just ain meant to be best of friends.
maybe it's just a waste of time and development space.

we never seem to meet.
whenever i go right, you go left
we keep quarrelling, or cold war.

i'm tired, and i hate to admit it, but it's dragging me down
have you ever considered that i might be busy.
have you ever wondered whether i cared for you?
have you ever pondered over me?
i wonder.

it's always a imbalance
either i put in too much, or you put in too much.
it never goes equal.

it's emotionally,
physically,
mentally,
getting worse.
by the days.
and hurting me.

yes i'm a pest,
i agree i can be obsessive sometimes.
a bit jealous of your buddies who you seem to love more
i just want to know more about you.
to care more about you.

yet it seems that our time is up.
i want to talk to you, continue the old times, but it's always no time, don't want, no mood.
i don't know what to say to you anymore,
what to talk to make it sounds unweird?
to make it sound normal?

i have no idea anymore.
enlighten me then.

wo ai ni.
i love you.
aishiteru.

Post

keep keep bleeding,
i keep keep bleeding,
keeep bleeding love ~
--

LOL, i'm addicted to that song okehhh.
okeh, for v day,
i wasted my time (:
chatted with stealth & joewie all the waaay until 3+
then 3-5 watch tv,
5+ sleeeeeeep until 11+
( i know i'm a pigg )
then wake up chiong homework, drag to bed again.

woke up, did th normal things,
went sch,
chiong hw for ss cause i did it in paper instead of foolscap.
then first period ss ma.
finish it, then tell teacher i need time,
halfway she explain, i doing work and correction
got the topic for common test studying,
wait.
ok stayed fr el .
wanted to hand up our-so-call-ed homework,
but was prevented due to kanchiong-ness.
then,
went thru and stuffs,
learnt stuff,
talked to shuwei n raymond.
hahas,
really enjoyed chatting with shuwei
(first time talking to her up close and personal,)
about v day and stuff.
for some reason, from talking about vday, it turned to be talk about sleeptimes and everything.
hahas, realized such a nice girl. i'm glad to talk to her (:

recess came and flewww (exaggaration)

history

quite okeh,
went thru answers,
got test marks,
7/9 nt bad.
then guess i need to buck up and get better results,
thats' cold harsh reality for me.

mother tongue.
rushed thru it,
teacher talked about the paper, i copied stuff,
and: yay-ness to yuliah for getting top (:
for essay, her essay is brillant and she even included quotations from reading a chinese book and wrote out the true feelings of a convict, which left the teacher so touch-ed.
and teacher told us some ghost story which was freaky.
(reminds me of ms khan, my bubbly pleasantly plump english tution teacher)

then, afterschool
chiong the project until 3
with inshirah.
then hand up to mr tan tc after waiting fr him fervently.
(went around whole school finding him)
i insist,
WE DID NOT COPY JASMINE'S WORK IN TH CME PROJECTT.
same idea, but different concept.
-

then following that, chiong home to novena.
like, reached home at 3+,
faster bathe, ate curry noodles, rush to novena with mom, fell asleep on train.
waken by mom and went about a roundabout way to find the place.
called jason several times infact before we reached the damn place.
but one incident occured.
a idiotic indian lady went to trip my mom.
then shouted shit at her.
i was like whostarteditfirst,
then my mom shouted at her back for that remark.

then she complain-ed as we went about square one, square two, velocity, novena square then finally to our destination.
then she left for walkwalk.
i settl-ed down and started finishing the maths revision questions.
halfway thru.
there was a guy whose handphone had a ringtone which kept saying, "it's raining! it's raining! trees are dotdot, birds are dotdotdot" LOOLLL, and jason was saying, one more time i hear that sound, i give you raining hahahas.
abit of laughs inbetween.
finally went on to the indices worksheeeeeeeet :DDDD
then do until question 42
then go home le.
ohmytian la.
stand at mrt there for 16STOPPPSS.
-.-"
lazy bugger ma.
and crazy bugger.
so just stand there lol.
so tired, leg aching like siao, fortunately friday.
went to watch a lil tv, packed up and went to sleeeeeeeeep (:
i'm just so amazed and proud of myself for doing maths question from 5.30+ all the way until 8.50 okeh, amazing achievement. LOLLLL, yepppp, until my brain really conk-ed out dead tired, hurt like hell that kind.
-

went tution, learnt fun bits as usual, had vocab hell today, vocab vocab vocab, learnt vocabbbb (:
and we're doing ARGUMENTIVE/FACTUAL ESSAY next weeeek!!! AIN THAT BRILLANTTTT!!! -hypers.

then walk-ed with yiqian, talked about amaths, emaths to history and everything else. like per normal, then go tution lorh. tution well, can be remarked as crazy and suck like hell. hellish man, out of 10words, i could only write out one properly for spelling, cause never revise and even learnt it properly.

For the thing we had CHINESE COMPRE MCQ, got 3 out of 10 wrong heh. then got shock remarks from chenyun for not doing well, cause a bit blur and stuff.

then chenyun released us early! ain that great! and my friend huijia walked me to the mrt hahas.
then i climbed staircase as escalator not working, and lazy go other way, saw suzanne, met vera together after reaching bb mrt together. then said goodbye to vera and talked to suzanne a lil, then reach home.

:D
that's all.

&lastly, quote from somebody:
from: yuliah:

Life takes your dreams and turns them upside down,
friends talk about you when you're not around.
People make promises they just cant keep,
and I've come to realize that talk is cheap.
Too often we dont realize what we have until its gone.
Too often we wait too long to say "I'm sorry, I was wrong".
Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones we hold dearest to our hearts.
And we allow foolish things to tear our lives apart.

>;D
next time then.

keep keep bleeding,
i keep keep bleeding,
keeep bleeding love ~
--

LOL, i'm addicted to that song okehhh.
okeh, for v day,
i wasted my time (:
chatted with stealth & joewie all the waaay until 3+
then 3-5 watch tv,
5+ sleeeeeeep until 11+
( i know i'm a pigg )
then wake up chiong homework, drag to bed again.

woke up, did th normal things,
went sch,
chiong hw for ss cause i did it in paper instead of foolscap.
then first period ss ma.
finish it, then tell teacher i need time,
halfway she explain, i doing work and correction
got the topic for common test studying,
wait.
ok stayed fr el .
wanted to hand up our-so-call-ed homework,
but was prevented due to kanchiong-ness.
then,
went thru and stuffs,
learnt stuff,
talked to shuwei n raymond.
hahas,
really enjoyed chatting with shuwei
(first time talking to her up close and personal,)
about v day and stuff.
for some reason, from talking about vday, it turned to be talk about sleeptimes and everything.
hahas, realized such a nice girl. i'm glad to talk to her (:

recess came and flewww (exaggaration)

history

quite okeh,
went thru answers,
got test marks,
7/9 nt bad.
then guess i need to buck up and get better results,
thats' cold harsh reality for me.

mother tongue.
rushed thru it,
teacher talked about the paper, i copied stuff,
and: yay-ness to yuliah for getting top (:
for essay, her essay is brillant and she even included quotations from reading a chinese book and wrote out the true feelings of a convict, which left the teacher so touch-ed.
and teacher told us some ghost story which was freaky.
(reminds me of ms khan, my bubbly pleasantly plump english tution teacher)

then, afterschool
chiong the project until 3
with inshirah.
then hand up to mr tan tc after waiting fr him fervently.
(went around whole school finding him)
i insist,
WE DID NOT COPY JASMINE'S WORK IN TH CME PROJECTT.
same idea, but different concept.
-

then following that, chiong home to novena.
like, reached home at 3+,
faster bathe, ate curry noodles, rush to novena with mom, fell asleep on train.
waken by mom and went about a roundabout way to find the place.
called jason several times infact before we reached the damn place.
but one incident occured.
a idiotic indian lady went to trip my mom.
then shouted shit at her.
i was like whostarteditfirst,
then my mom shouted at her back for that remark.

then she complain-ed as we went about square one, square two, velocity, novena square then finally to our destination.
then she left for walkwalk.
i settl-ed down and started finishing the maths revision questions.
halfway thru.
there was a guy whose handphone had a ringtone which kept saying, "it's raining! it's raining! trees are dotdot, birds are dotdotdot" LOOLLL, and jason was saying, one more time i hear that sound, i give you raining hahahas.
abit of laughs inbetween.
finally went on to the indices worksheeeeeeeet :DDDD
then do until question 42
then go home le.
ohmytian la.
stand at mrt there for 16STOPPPSS.
-.-"
lazy bugger ma.
and crazy bugger.
so just stand there lol.
so tired, leg aching like siao, fortunately friday.
went to watch a lil tv, packed up and went to sleeeeeeeeep (:
i'm just so amazed and proud of myself for doing maths question from 5.30+ all the way until 8.50 okeh, amazing achievement. LOLLLL, yepppp, until my brain really conk-ed out dead tired, hurt like hell that kind.
-

went tution, learnt fun bits as usual, had vocab hell today, vocab vocab vocab, learnt vocabbbb (:
and we're doing ARGUMENTIVE/FACTUAL ESSAY next weeeek!!! AIN THAT BRILLANTTTT!!! -hypers.

then walk-ed with yiqian, talked about amaths, emaths to history and everything else. like per normal, then go tution lorh. tution well, can be remarked as crazy and suck like hell. hellish man, out of 10words, i could only write out one properly for spelling, cause never revise and even learnt it properly.

For the thing we had CHINESE COMPRE MCQ, got 3 out of 10 wrong heh. then got shock remarks from chenyun for not doing well, cause a bit blur and stuff.

then chenyun released us early! ain that great! and my friend huijia walked me to the mrt hahas.
then i climbed staircase as escalator not working, and lazy go other way, saw suzanne, met vera together after reaching bb mrt together. then said goodbye to vera and talked to suzanne a lil, then reach home.

:D
that's all.

&lastly, quote from somebody:
from: yuliah:

Life takes your dreams and turns them upside down,
friends talk about you when you're not around.
People make promises they just cant keep,
and I've come to realize that talk is cheap.
Too often we dont realize what we have until its gone.
Too often we wait too long to say "I'm sorry, I was wrong".
Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones we hold dearest to our hearts.
And we allow foolish things to tear our lives apart.

>;D
next time then.

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Colourgenic's Quiz:
http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm

It would appear that at this particular time of your life you are going through a tough time. You are feeling (or have recently felt) miserable and depressed and perhaps you are still feeling that way. Maybe all the trials and tribulations just aren't worth it. Your present anxieties could have been associated with either your 'private' or 'business' life - whatever ... what you really need at this time is to get away from it all, maybe a vacation - alone, or better still, perhaps with someone that you know really cares for you, someone who appreciates you - not for what you have but for who you are. A short vacation may be all you need to afford you the time to recover and to get back to your normal vital self.

You are a leader and possibly at this tine in a position of authority, but you are experiencing problems. You are not quite sure how to handle the present situation.

You are a demanding egocentric and therefore quick to take offence. This attitude makes people feel somewhat inadequate when in your company and so it is no wonder that at times you feel alone and unwanted.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!

Colourgenic's Quiz:
http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm

It would appear that at this particular time of your life you are going through a tough time. You are feeling (or have recently felt) miserable and depressed and perhaps you are still feeling that way. Maybe all the trials and tribulations just aren't worth it. Your present anxieties could have been associated with either your 'private' or 'business' life - whatever ... what you really need at this time is to get away from it all, maybe a vacation - alone, or better still, perhaps with someone that you know really cares for you, someone who appreciates you - not for what you have but for who you are. A short vacation may be all you need to afford you the time to recover and to get back to your normal vital self.

You are a leader and possibly at this tine in a position of authority, but you are experiencing problems. You are not quite sure how to handle the present situation.

You are a demanding egocentric and therefore quick to take offence. This attitude makes people feel somewhat inadequate when in your company and so it is no wonder that at times you feel alone and unwanted.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!

todaysuck;

went to school as per normal,
everything went per normal, not.
maths period went okeh,cause for some reason indices seems to make more sense in me now,
finally my brain woke up.

actually today not feeling very well, stomache all the way until end of pe.
die la. was planning to not run and stuffs, but to accompany kiki i went and run la, end up pain like what, face pale like ghost and really not feeling well.

Had a few good laughs with zhihui's team, omgz, they are so so FUNNY.

english went alright .. roughly i guess.

recess, talk-ed to nithya and all, ate food, went to change.

mothertongue. i suck, i don't understand what the teacher is teaching, more or less how come my results keep dropping? drop until adeline's standard lei! bloodyshock went thru me.

ft period, i dump-ed the recyclables in the bin. then coming up met mr tan, accidently from 3rd level stop go direct straight. mr tan noticed and said, "oie. look carefully!" so ps. then went up properly into the classroom. wanted to joke that i might be late for class next time because walk wrong way.

hmm, talk to chen lao shi, talk until cry liao. yunhui looking -.-" cause i don't understand the sudden decrease of marks and everything else. I'm so pressurized to fight it all with a new class, to work hard, to be one of the top students in the level and everything else. cried la.

assembly. nithya said that uma noticed that i was crying and asked me whats wrong. she gave me a hug again. then we settled down. drying my tears with tissue paper. then sang the school song and stuffs.

afterschool. went to find ms yap for yuliah, figured out everything, saw dexter and the guys heading off to basketball. jordan twisted his hand incidently, so i was kinda worried and stayed until he came back on his feet and stuff hahs.

went up the bus, saw somebody going down the bus. weird. so weird. i come up, you go down. maybe not fated afterall (:

happyvalentines,
happyfifthanni, janice dear.
happyfriendshipday, =D

if i said i love you, then i mean what i say.
(:

tmr jason's tution,
next week common test,
after that,
got sec3 cammppp

arghhh, why are examinations coming so early?
i'm not prepareddd!

i wanna cry.
i wanna cry until every tear has came out.
until i can't remember anything.

Time doesn't heal, it simply numbs the pain so that you will feel better ):

HAPPYVDAY(:

Missing th old times;

i'm going bonkers ain i..
madness.

want-ed to blog ytd,
too tired,
too overload with work.

lets see what happen-ed.
-flashback to ytd.

i really felt felt emo emo.
emo i mean, yes damn emo.
... really want to cry it out and all.
once for all, and all for once.

hais.
okeh, flashback.

tuesday had th well, mother tongue test return paper.
i suck
suck suck suck
bloodyhell.
i just barely pass-ed.
what's wrong with meeeeee
i used to be able to do well for th first MCQ section
i only got 4 .. what the fuck.
total 40.5.
I SUCK.

..
then, maths.
went alright as bo maths period.
was reading a book luh.

english.
odessey.
suck.

..
i love the odessey.
but well.
i really WANT to scold th teacher.
YOU TOLD US TO FINISH TH PPT.
AND I SKIPPED STUDYING FOR TWO, NO, THREE TESTS.
TO FINISH THE FUCKING PPT,
WHICH LEFT ME BLOODY EXHAUSTED.
and now,
you decided not to let us present and skippp over to new topic for common test,
Good one.
you know how much time and effort i wasted on this VIDEO?
Video edited over 10times until it was PERFECT,
and ppt,
i wasted two days to FINISH it, PERFECT
..
now you give us this shitload.
kfine, have it your way.

then did summary reflection,
summary points,
noting,
then.
after that,
finish writing down,
left.

go canteen,
buy food,
halfway emo-ing over what somebody said.

yes i'm fat,
big deal?
obviously i know myself,
you think you very big deal coz you average righhttt.
please la.
if you not uber thin, shut the fuck up.
you don't have any rights to gossip behind people's back,
ooh, sorry no people back, STRAIGHT LOUDLY INFRONT OF ME.
yes, pointing your finger someone.
you bitch.

then wanted to go the fishpond,
but couldn't
.. go physics.
want-ed to sleep halfway.
eyes kept dropping.
then suddenly, my eyesight returned.
and could study.

back home,
emo-ing over somethings.
then,
loss of thermometer,
bro threw it away,
suan le,
jiu suan wo suay hao le.

.. nearly cried,
cause really..
too much presssure building inside me.

responsibility,
resilience not to cry,
don't want others to worry.

.. oh yeah,
after netball,
after settling typing,
i went to see mr joshua tan.
he asked me basically all my school life.
in sec3..
i was going to cry then.
.. seriously.
just thinking.
..
..
then.
pretended that nth's wrong, everything finefine, smile at him,
told him a direct white lie to his face.
..
i hate myself.

then.. went home.
and stuff.

today,
got new bag.
yellow schoolbag.
love it, except that it's kind of loose at one end and kept dropping.
overall, lighter then old school bagg.

maths.
got back testpaper.
generally did alright.
24/35.
suck.
should have gotten 31 ..
was thinking,
jason would have killed me if he saw this paper.
two careless mistakes,
one lazy mistake.
and lots more don't know how to do mistakes.
well, i suck.
but actually it was good.
cause 15 people passed,
i was th 5th to be called.
and the first girl.
raymond, lutfi, asyraf, yongkang ..
arrange from top to bottom that is.
glad that mary and kiki passed.

then,
physics.
wanted to doze off,
damn tired larh.
but kept slapping myself,
pinching my cheeks to stay awake.
then finally woke up again.
then do all the stuff
mr tan sheng qi.
scolded us.
hais.
poor mr tan.
always wasting his saliva on such a noisy class like us.
..
he damn good teacher,
except no luck pick our class nia.
..

well,
ss.
firstly, i didn't know what she was talking about.
counting money.
then.
back to reality,
understood, finished work, got hw.

home econs,
fun.
damn damn fun.
except the marks thing.
39/60.
barely passed too.
but generally okeh,
cause didn't need to retake any test (:!
next time terminalogy you suck.
i just passed with a .. 4.5/9.
well, better luck next time.
..

then stayed back,
halfway done,
went to help out with netball board.
holding string while inshiri (my nick for inshirah) tied,
holding things,
getting stuffs for them
and chatting
..

i chose not to put the pic with me,
cause i know i look damn ugly,
and some of them look better in the first pic which don't have me,
so i didn't take that.
(:

hope they understand.
i don't wanna people to be sad because of me.
to be worried over me.
to be concerned about me.

i just need rest and lots lots of sleep.
well, after this, going stomping, chatting then
do english homework (no ss tmr).
then .. well, survive the rest of tomorrow.

friday,
jason's TUTION!
YEAHHHH(:

&thursday.
valentine's day.
(:
ME AND LAOGONG's 5th MONTH ANNI.
ILOVEBITCH, AND BITCHLOVEMEEE.
:DDDDD!
ILJKTX.
and she loves,
SLFTPY.
(:

lovelove,
in th air.
but not for me.
and never, ever will it be for me.
(:

listening to love songs, reminds me of the past.
the sweet things that you used to do for me,
the beautiful incident that made me meet you,
the pranks i played on you,
the bad things that made me sad because of you,
the amount of time i took crying over you,
getting over you, and getting back on my feet.

i'm not missing you,
and ..
i need to convince myself that my decision was right.

bleedinglove,
what a song.
(:

end of post.

...

well, today's the second day of bai nian.
day went better, compared to ytd.

Got rushed to bath, then bathed, then take cab to ahgong's house.
After awhile, my malay cousins came (my father's sister who married a malay), was like wow, haven't really see them in ages, and chatted with them abit. Then, i ate. Halfway while eating, Gavin's parents and his brother as well as himself came luh. Talked with gavin and his father, gavin .. keep bullying my brother, treat him like what exercise machine zz. We all crowded at uncle bunny's room (sister, me, bro, gavin, gavin's bro, gavin's father and mom) lols, we were watching MVP2: The Primate (whatever it's called la), damn funny, jimmy and his brother, luui (can't spell). Then laughing and chatting. Later, Gavin's father told me that he never dared to eat the chicken in chicken rice. Then he said that scientists, in order to make the chickens fat and plump, they inserted something like hormones inside, so those who eat the chicken would have some changes to their body.

Then, i finished eating, watched the fun for gags stuff, damn funneh, eh no, the party fouls. LOL! we were laughing at the people in america's funny antics, but i guess-ed, fun for gags is better! (:
went through gavin's phone, for music hahas, i was so shocked that he got the song bouncy bouncy smack smack (seriously ...) then sister went to sleep at uncle bunny's bed (exhausted i guess).

After that, zhiling they all came, her bro like very very serious, don't wanna talk to me. I was like, HELLO, am i invisble? I'm so fattt, how come cannot see meeee. (bhb-ing). Then, we talked awhile, zhiling and me about the subject combinations (how envious i was to find out that her school offered them pure sciences if they got 70 and above, damn shuqun) LOL! Then i waved at the malay couzzie of mine and talked about the courses she was taking and stuff.

My mom had this crazy idea of taking a family photo, so not to dump her hyper-ness, i went along with it, sat down, made a look like this: ._. , then she lead ahgong and everybody into taking their family photos, dot dot dot.

Later on, daddy me and sister chatted awhile in the kitchen. Following that, we said goodbye to everybody cause we were leaving. Take taxi also so mafan. Then, the taxi driver went at a speed of 100km/h when the speed limitation was 90km/h, and so on and forth, i was frantically looking =l then i was so tired, just plonked out and rested a shortwhile before we arrived home. I tell you, coming home is the best thing that could happen in a day, enjoyable man. Came home, bathe, watched a show, then cooked dinner for bro and me, and now i'm resting at the computer, brillant eh.

I love my father's side of family, well, way better then my mother's side. They are great and nice people seriously, maybe a bit tooo advisable at times, to keep my weight at check, but still quite nice people. I FOUND OUT THAT I GREW TALLER! YAY! LOLLLLLL! (bhbs)

I miss janice, and nithya and lots moreeee. I wonder how they're doing in this cny. *begs that jason don't kill me* After the maths test, i was like, oh shit, jason's going to kill me. zz. Fatal mistake that was.

Bye for now.

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For some reason, i'm feeling extremely lonely again.

After talking with nazira, zhiyi on msn, it feels like they have all changed, from fun classmates of the old times to more serious and more formal people. Feels so weird, yet so strange and awkard to talk to them. Oh well, gotta get used to it. Haven't really talked to them for 3 years, which is quite a long time .. and still counting.

Dunno, talked to a few people who enlightened me. Sebby, also known as Crabby for me. His a stomper, btw, whose quite a nice guy and all. Uncle Bread, aka bready, the one who owe me angpow. Hahas and lots more people from stomp. Including, Joewie, a sweet guy who looks like weiquan whose really intelligent and fun.

For some reason, i miss habboing so much, perhaps a addiction. But my father don't want me to go Habbo anymore, and i'm not in the mood still, after so many events happening together.

Went for the annual bai nian.
Went to ahma's house, before that it was a huge hassle over the things i was going to wear for shoes. The black shoes don't fit, my school shoes are as dirty as filth and all that, can't even wear sandals. The end result: Wearing black high heel-ed dancing shoes.

At the beginning, i was worried whether i could carry off the prima donna look with the high heel-ed look. Then, i realized something, it may not be that easy to stand up tall up against people of the same age cause' either they are short or too tall. Scary thought.

Well, beginning was fine. Until i reached there, so exhausted. Then watched Jimmy The MVP movie (The chimpazee who won the Harvest Cup for Ice Hockey) .. for a while before leaving, ate mua chee (a chinese food) and stuffs, got my angpows and left awhile later. After that, my leg were aching like hell, to balance the high heels. Got suan-ed by eldest sister cousin for being able to wear the high heels. Gave me the disgruntled look that was like: OOOH. You can wear this arh." Then she tried it on, and said, no big deal you can wear it. I was like thinking, obviously you can wear it. You're so fuckinglyxz slim and all, it's a miracle that i can wear it okeh." zzz.

Then, took bus to ang mo kio. Legs were tearing, I wanted to throw away the high heels. Then slept throughout the journey, wasn't willing to wake up either. Then go up, collect angpows, cook curry and watch television. Something interesting: A hotel television costed only 21.40 dollars o.o. Wanted one for the room, but it would be indeed a distraction. So left the place, took bus home, switched bus, then take bus to westmall. Had a meal at Burger King, yummyalicious, came home, bath-ed and stomp-ed. After stomping, chatted, then here i'm, listening to sad old english songs and enjoying myself. Ahhh, I wanna bathe again :P!

Haiz, wanted a long post, probably will blog more often. Change blogskin too if possible.
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Test Evaluation:

Phy Test - I tried my best, let whatever the result be .. good.
Chem Test - Miracally passed, might study harder in the future.
English Test - How could i have missed one question and not answer according to my instinct? I deliberated too long already. ARGHHHHH! And i only just passed it. How dumb is that.
Chinese Test - Teacher said it was bad, x.x please, good results.
Maths Test - omg, so stress-ed up by jason and stupid eugene. zzz, ended up I DID EVERYTHING CORRECTLY, but... well. I made a careless mistake and stuff :((( and some things that i learnt so hard wasn't tested, what the hell!!

Well, it's over, just treat it as a life experience, NEXT TIME, i promise will be WAAAAAAY better :l Lmfao. Why am i writing it like people would read this. zzz. stupid me.

Bye.
:l

going for imminent bathing session.

For some reason, i'm feeling extremely lonely again.

After talking with nazira, zhiyi on msn, it feels like they have all changed, from fun classmates of the old times to more serious and more formal people. Feels so weird, yet so strange and awkard to talk to them. Oh well, gotta get used to it. Haven't really talked to them for 3 years, which is quite a long time .. and still counting.

Dunno, talked to a few people who enlightened me. Sebby, also known as Crabby for me. His a stomper, btw, whose quite a nice guy and all. Uncle Bread, aka bready, the one who owe me angpow. Hahas and lots more people from stomp. Including, Joewie, a sweet guy who looks like weiquan whose really intelligent and fun.

For some reason, i miss habboing so much, perhaps a addiction. But my father don't want me to go Habbo anymore, and i'm not in the mood still, after so many events happening together.

Went for the annual bai nian.
Went to ahma's house, before that it was a huge hassle over the things i was going to wear for shoes. The black shoes don't fit, my school shoes are as dirty as filth and all that, can't even wear sandals. The end result: Wearing black high heel-ed dancing shoes.

At the beginning, i was worried whether i could carry off the prima donna look with the high heel-ed look. Then, i realized something, it may not be that easy to stand up tall up against people of the same age cause' either they are short or too tall. Scary thought.

Well, beginning was fine. Until i reached there, so exhausted. Then watched Jimmy The MVP movie (The chimpazee who won the Harvest Cup for Ice Hockey) .. for a while before leaving, ate mua chee (a chinese food) and stuffs, got my angpows and left awhile later. After that, my leg were aching like hell, to balance the high heels. Got suan-ed by eldest sister cousin for being able to wear the high heels. Gave me the disgruntled look that was like: OOOH. You can wear this arh." Then she tried it on, and said, no big deal you can wear it. I was like thinking, obviously you can wear it. You're so fuckinglyxz slim and all, it's a miracle that i can wear it okeh." zzz.

Then, took bus to ang mo kio. Legs were tearing, I wanted to throw away the high heels. Then slept throughout the journey, wasn't willing to wake up either. Then go up, collect angpows, cook curry and watch television. Something interesting: A hotel television costed only 21.40 dollars o.o. Wanted one for the room, but it would be indeed a distraction. So left the place, took bus home, switched bus, then take bus to westmall. Had a meal at Burger King, yummyalicious, came home, bath-ed and stomp-ed. After stomping, chatted, then here i'm, listening to sad old english songs and enjoying myself. Ahhh, I wanna bathe again :P!

Haiz, wanted a long post, probably will blog more often. Change blogskin too if possible.
---

Test Evaluation:

Phy Test - I tried my best, let whatever the result be .. good.
Chem Test - Miracally passed, might study harder in the future.
English Test - How could i have missed one question and not answer according to my instinct? I deliberated too long already. ARGHHHHH! And i only just passed it. How dumb is that.
Chinese Test - Teacher said it was bad, x.x please, good results.
Maths Test - omg, so stress-ed up by jason and stupid eugene. zzz, ended up I DID EVERYTHING CORRECTLY, but... well. I made a careless mistake and stuff :((( and some things that i learnt so hard wasn't tested, what the hell!!

Well, it's over, just treat it as a life experience, NEXT TIME, i promise will be WAAAAAAY better :l Lmfao. Why am i writing it like people would read this. zzz. stupid me.

Bye.
:l

going for imminent bathing session.