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hais.
i hate it,
flames to dust, lovers to friends, friends to foes.

must we really .. stop communicating.
i hate to admit it, but i miss you.
alot.

although we already patch, there's still this bigbigbig gigantic hole, preventing us from getting closer.
generation gap? perhaps.
every attempt i make to narrow the gap, just makes it bigger.
patch liao = lose communication = patch again = lose communication again => the cycle just continues.
hatred for this kinda thingy.

miscommunication, you're hated.
chemistry, you're hated too.

i wasted near to two hours doing the chem quizzes ytd, w/h referring to the tb.

walao, i want cry.
cry it all out.
ytd i did, for all the wrong reasons.
swollen eyes :l
lucky it looks fine.

I HATE MISCOMMUNICATION.
):

just wannna let it all out,
cry all i wannna,
scream out loud what i want,
shout it all .. loud&clear.

IMISS, YOU, VERYVERYBADLY, more then i would like to admit.
hais.

i'm scared,
if i patch with you again,
when i go overseas, it would just be another wasted attempt.

hai.
hongkong, shenzhen, i'm coming.
hais.

hais.
i hate it,
flames to dust, lovers to friends, friends to foes.

must we really .. stop communicating.
i hate to admit it, but i miss you.
alot.

although we already patch, there's still this bigbigbig gigantic hole, preventing us from getting closer.
generation gap? perhaps.
every attempt i make to narrow the gap, just makes it bigger.
patch liao = lose communication = patch again = lose communication again => the cycle just continues.
hatred for this kinda thingy.

miscommunication, you're hated.
chemistry, you're hated too.

i wasted near to two hours doing the chem quizzes ytd, w/h referring to the tb.

walao, i want cry.
cry it all out.
ytd i did, for all the wrong reasons.
swollen eyes :l
lucky it looks fine.

I HATE MISCOMMUNICATION.
):

just wannna let it all out,
cry all i wannna,
scream out loud what i want,
shout it all .. loud&clear.

IMISS, YOU, VERYVERYBADLY, more then i would like to admit.
hais.

i'm scared,
if i patch with you again,
when i go overseas, it would just be another wasted attempt.

hai.
hongkong, shenzhen, i'm coming.
hais.

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i feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel stupid.
stupid, stupid, idiot, retard, useless.

i never knew, i could get to hate the computer so much.
i never knew, getting good grades or passable results could make me so depressed.
what a irony.

i don't know what i can say to cheer the people up.
they all seem so depressed.
and every step i go towards them, it just serves them a reminder and make them feel worse,
and towards myself, bitter.

what the hell is happening.
i miss the good old days.
can i just rewind time and go back to a long long time ago, where there was no worries, and i was carefree being the person i was once?
i miss it all.
the cheerful laugher, the smiling faces, the feeling of being loved.

sometimes, i can't breathe.
there's something inside my heart that prevents me from breathing.
its suffocating me.
sad looking faces of people as they cry upon looking at their results.
my mind is telling me, that they are blaming me for my own existance.

how silly.
how stupid,
maybe i'm just a fool afterall.
to think that i could be one of them.
i never was, and never will be.
and it was so obvious right from the start.
it's not me.
and never will be me.

if i never existed in this world,
would they be happier?

i wonder.

can't help feeling useless.
whatever i say, just adds salt to the wound inflicted.
its no use trying.
i have already tried my best.
whatelse can i do?
the pathetic feeling.
this must be what hnin experienced during her two years here.
hai.

i am just so USELESS.
DUMB,
RETARDED,
just simply, so STUPID.

nobody will ever love me.

look in the mirror,
who will ever love you?
you dumb, retarded, stupid idiot.
and you look so ugly too.

whirl around, and behind you is plain old me.

i can't continue to smile, pretend that nothing happened.

i'm not okay, not at all.
hao bu kai xin D:

i feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel stupid.
stupid, stupid, idiot, retard, useless.

i never knew, i could get to hate the computer so much.
i never knew, getting good grades or passable results could make me so depressed.
what a irony.

i don't know what i can say to cheer the people up.
they all seem so depressed.
and every step i go towards them, it just serves them a reminder and make them feel worse,
and towards myself, bitter.

what the hell is happening.
i miss the good old days.
can i just rewind time and go back to a long long time ago, where there was no worries, and i was carefree being the person i was once?
i miss it all.
the cheerful laugher, the smiling faces, the feeling of being loved.

sometimes, i can't breathe.
there's something inside my heart that prevents me from breathing.
its suffocating me.
sad looking faces of people as they cry upon looking at their results.
my mind is telling me, that they are blaming me for my own existance.

how silly.
how stupid,
maybe i'm just a fool afterall.
to think that i could be one of them.
i never was, and never will be.
and it was so obvious right from the start.
it's not me.
and never will be me.

if i never existed in this world,
would they be happier?

i wonder.

can't help feeling useless.
whatever i say, just adds salt to the wound inflicted.
its no use trying.
i have already tried my best.
whatelse can i do?
the pathetic feeling.
this must be what hnin experienced during her two years here.
hai.

i am just so USELESS.
DUMB,
RETARDED,
just simply, so STUPID.

nobody will ever love me.

look in the mirror,
who will ever love you?
you dumb, retarded, stupid idiot.
and you look so ugly too.

whirl around, and behind you is plain old me.

i can't continue to smile, pretend that nothing happened.

i'm not okay, not at all.
hao bu kai xin D:

Ai Lai Guo by SHE.

爱来过-S.H.E


我 看不开 也放不开
因为我曾见过 爱情真的盛开
我 要等待 一直等待
等那一个夜晚 从回忆回来
当你拥抱着我 那一瞬间
我象飞到空中
而当我缓缓降落 我不再是我
我有了梦 我在梦中

爱来过 来得那么美 那么凶
欢呼着 从我生命 狠狠碾过
连遗憾 也都不争气的
珍惜成笑容
爱来过 让我完整过 幸福过
怎么能轻易就放他走
我不想解脱 我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来 爱我

寂寞喧哗 我不害怕
因为我只听得见对你的牵挂
世界很大 会容得下
我这小小傻傻顽固的信仰
你有没有过承诺
我已忘了 那已不重要了
反正我都会守候 在梦中守候
我最唯一 最美的梦

爱来过 来得那么美 那么凶
欢呼着 从我生命 狠狠碾过
连遗憾 也都不争气的
珍惜成笑容
爱来过 让我完整过 幸福过
怎么能轻易就放他走
我不想解脱 我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来

如果需要动用奇迹来交换美丽
就让泪蒸发 下成雪花
和我一起在爱中被融化

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nothing to be said about results.
(:

Warnings:
1: A stock clerk was sent to clean up a storeroom in Maui , Hawaii .

When he got back, he was complaining that the storeroom was really filthy and that he had noticed dried mouse/rat droppings in some areas.!
A couple of days later, he started to feel like he was coming down with a stomach flu, complained of sore joints and headaches, and began to vomit.

He went to bed and never really got up again. Within two
days he was severely ill and weak. His blood sugar count was down to 66,and his face and eyeballs were yellow. He was rushed to the emergency at Pali-Momi, where he was diagnosed to be suffering from massive organ failure.He died shortly before midnight.
No one would have made the connection between his job and his death, had it not been for a doctor who specifically asked if he had been in a warehouse or exposed to dried rat/mouse droppings at anytime. They said there isa virus (much like the Hanta virus) that lives in dried rat and mouse droppings.

Once dried, these droppings are like dust and can easily be breathed in or ingested if a person does not wear protective gear or fails to washface and hands thoroughly.

An autopsy was performed on the clerk to verify the doctor's suspicions...

This is why it is extremely important to ALWAYS carefully rinse off the tops of canned sodas or foods, and to wipe off pasta packaging, cerealboxes, and so on.

Almost everything you buy in a supermarket was stored in a warehouse atone time or another, and stores themselves often have rodents.

Most of us remember to wash vegetables and fruits but never think of boxesand cans.
The ugly truth is, even the most modern, upper-class, super store has ratsand mice. And their warehouse most assuredly does!

Whenever you buy any canned soft drink, please make sure that you wash the top with running water and soap or, if that is not available, drink with a straw.
The investigation of soda cans by the Center for Disease Control in Atlanta discovered that the tops of soda cans can be encrusted with dried rat's urine, which is so toxic it can be lethal. Canned drinks and other food stuffs are stored in warehouses and containers that are usually infested with rodents, and then they get transported to retail outlets without being properly cleaned.

2: Emails with pictures of Osama Bin-Laden hanged are being sent and the moment that you open these emails your computer will crash and you will not be able to fix it!

If you get an email along the lines of 'Osama Bin Laden Captured' or 'Osama Hanged' don't open the attachment. This e-mail is being distributed through countries around the globe, but mainly in the US and Israel. Be considerate & send this warning to whomever you know.

Please forward this warning among friends, family and contacts.You

should be alert during the next days:

1. Do not open any message with an attached file called 'Invitation' regardless of who sent it.
2. It is a virus that opens an Olympic Torch which 'burns' the whole hard disc C of your computer.

This virus will be received from someone who has your e-mail address in his/her contact list, that is why you should send this e-mail to all your contacts.
It is better to receive this message 25 times than to receive the virus and open it.

If you receive a mail called 'invitation', though sent by a friend, do not open it and shut down your computer immediately. This is the worst virus announced by CNN, it has been classified by Microsoft as the most destructive virus ever.
This virus was discovered by McAfee, and there is no repair yet for this kind of virus. This virus simply destroys the Zero Sector of the Hard Disc, where the vital information is kept.

:D
stay e-safe! ^^

nothing to be said about results.
(:

Warnings:
1: A stock clerk was sent to clean up a storeroom in Maui , Hawaii .

When he got back, he was complaining that the storeroom was really filthy and that he had noticed dried mouse/rat droppings in some areas.!
A couple of days later, he started to feel like he was coming down with a stomach flu, complained of sore joints and headaches, and began to vomit.

He went to bed and never really got up again. Within two
days he was severely ill and weak. His blood sugar count was down to 66,and his face and eyeballs were yellow. He was rushed to the emergency at Pali-Momi, where he was diagnosed to be suffering from massive organ failure.He died shortly before midnight.
No one would have made the connection between his job and his death, had it not been for a doctor who specifically asked if he had been in a warehouse or exposed to dried rat/mouse droppings at anytime. They said there isa virus (much like the Hanta virus) that lives in dried rat and mouse droppings.

Once dried, these droppings are like dust and can easily be breathed in or ingested if a person does not wear protective gear or fails to washface and hands thoroughly.

An autopsy was performed on the clerk to verify the doctor's suspicions...

This is why it is extremely important to ALWAYS carefully rinse off the tops of canned sodas or foods, and to wipe off pasta packaging, cerealboxes, and so on.

Almost everything you buy in a supermarket was stored in a warehouse atone time or another, and stores themselves often have rodents.

Most of us remember to wash vegetables and fruits but never think of boxesand cans.
The ugly truth is, even the most modern, upper-class, super store has ratsand mice. And their warehouse most assuredly does!

Whenever you buy any canned soft drink, please make sure that you wash the top with running water and soap or, if that is not available, drink with a straw.
The investigation of soda cans by the Center for Disease Control in Atlanta discovered that the tops of soda cans can be encrusted with dried rat's urine, which is so toxic it can be lethal. Canned drinks and other food stuffs are stored in warehouses and containers that are usually infested with rodents, and then they get transported to retail outlets without being properly cleaned.

2: Emails with pictures of Osama Bin-Laden hanged are being sent and the moment that you open these emails your computer will crash and you will not be able to fix it!

If you get an email along the lines of 'Osama Bin Laden Captured' or 'Osama Hanged' don't open the attachment. This e-mail is being distributed through countries around the globe, but mainly in the US and Israel. Be considerate & send this warning to whomever you know.

Please forward this warning among friends, family and contacts.You

should be alert during the next days:

1. Do not open any message with an attached file called 'Invitation' regardless of who sent it.
2. It is a virus that opens an Olympic Torch which 'burns' the whole hard disc C of your computer.

This virus will be received from someone who has your e-mail address in his/her contact list, that is why you should send this e-mail to all your contacts.
It is better to receive this message 25 times than to receive the virus and open it.

If you receive a mail called 'invitation', though sent by a friend, do not open it and shut down your computer immediately. This is the worst virus announced by CNN, it has been classified by Microsoft as the most destructive virus ever.
This virus was discovered by McAfee, and there is no repair yet for this kind of virus. This virus simply destroys the Zero Sector of the Hard Disc, where the vital information is kept.

:D
stay e-safe! ^^

EXAMS!

WEEEE~
i can't surpress my joy,
delight,
laughter,
and happpinesssss!

EXAMS ARE OVER!
finally ..

well, no brief summary thingy about all the papers,
the main concerns are CHEMISTRY - pleasepleaseeeeee, pass and MATHS paper one, please, don't deduct my careless mistakes ):

oh.
i went to library after f&n paper.
WEEE! got two new books to start reading ^^.

I rushed nithya, lololo.
maybe too enthu liao,
keep running.
run to find mary they all walking slowly.
then,
run to catch bus when the next bus just behind ._."
too kiasu.
:x

I miss comppp!
i haven't been using, since 4th - HNIN HNIN AHHHH! YOU GOOD )): separate me from compcomp.
i haven't beeeeeeeeeeen uh uh HAVING PROPER SLEEP SINCE 6th.
everyday sleep latelate, wake up earlyearly, finish exam, one-two hour sleep... and the cycle continue.
NO WONDER I GOT PANDA EYE LE ):
T_T
CHUBBYFACE SOMEMORE.
later become chubby human panda o:

I wonder,
hows' everybody being doing.

hnin hnin,
I NEVERRRR INFLUENCE YOU WOR.
-innocent.

-hypers,

Uncertainities.

amazing, how things that you realize can make you feel better.

"只要一个人从另一个角度来想莫件事，也许会从中豁然开解"

i finally realize something, something i left out.
since, a nong nong ago, i have always thought myself as alone.
somehow, forlorn and miserable.
but, now i realize, there are other people who are facing the same things that i am, and i shouldn't give up on my ideals no matter what(:
and that, some people, can look like perfect, and act the greatest friend to you, but they can still backstab you and turn the tables on you.
hypocritical thinking ;D

and that,
I should learn to be appreciative of the surrounding people, because now i understand certain things will never change, no matter what, and that, if some people have to go, there's no use clinging on to them, you will only hurt yourself further.

a dedication post to somebody, that i forgottten nongnongtimeago,

somehow, when i realize the lies that you said,
i really want to thank you for opening up my heart, and slamming the door into it once again, stabbing mutiple wounds into it, and just leaving me to clear up the bloody mess.
i hope, i'll never meet such people like you.
such people like you simply just makes the world fall down disasterously.
maybe, you're still a immature guy, and a kiddo at that.
kudos to you for getting in deep, and hurting me.
it's so ironical that i had regretted whatever i had done, and tried so much ways to salvage it, and just ended up hurting myself more, and crying it loud did cure.

I cried over you, so many days, so many times, that it is almost pointless to cry.
but now, when others tell me about you now, i got nothing better to say, just no comment.
cause, i'm over you ^^.
cheers to myself, for having experienced this kinda thing, and in a way, matured! (:
and, i realized how naive i was due to you, so thankyou so much,
you'll always be the best liar i have ever known.

"Time doesn't heal, it numbs the pain so that it would feel better in the end."
i can now, stand up on my feet, and say it doesn't hurt at all, i don't have any more feeelings(:

okeh,
andddddd:
HISTORYYY: WWI is not really CONSIDERED a WORLDWAR, because it only affected the euro-pacific region of the world at that time during the industralization period. WWII is a true WORLDWAR, because it affected the whole world. Hitler started the war in the euro-pacific region for Germany to dominate the whole world, while Japan started the war in the Asia region to dominate the whole of Asia(:

weeet, I LOVE 3RD OF MAY '08!
JANICE DARDAR IS BACK WITH MEEEEE(;
YAY-ness.

janjan, is loved.
fen li che will always love zha ni si,
as.
felfel will always love janjan<3!

loves,
<3.

Sorrow.

today,
i finally understood "sorrow", the word that i have always seek to express in terms of english, and language, but now i really feel the utmost pain.

The feeling that nobody really understands you, and when you had tried to perform a task perfectly, nobody appreciates your efforts, but chide you, make you seem like a fool, like a kid who will keep crying to no end.

The bitter disappointment, felt when ur intended desire was not met.
The hurt, that bites you from within.
Feeling like somebody who nobody cares or loves about, just left alone.
/locked up.

i felt guilt today. It's like even those who used to heck care about examinations, those who will never say yes to studying is studying even more harder than myself, trying to make it go in mye. Yet i'm here, typing nevertheless, waiting for the arrival for my brother, complaining typically that the world is unfair, and 24hours a day is simply not enough.

sometimes, i find myself appreciating what others have. "Humans will never appreciate what they have, they only tend to envy others."

Yes, i admit that i'm guilty as proven..but seriously, you find somebody who has it all: great family members, smarts as in brains, and even beauty. You think you rather be them, so that you can appreciate whatever they got, which seemed to be wasted on them. And it ends up, you got even better than them.

I'm not naturally smart.
I'm dimwitted, careless, clumsy, and no sense of direction what-so-ever.
imperfect me((:

yet, i tend to do better.
why?
because i put in extra efforts to making sure that my goals are achieved.
and when they are, i feel a extreme sense of success and pleasure.

I don't have any talents.
I'm not good in anything at all.
Sometimes i feel that god wasted his time creating me.
Because, whatever i do, tend to be not enough.

I'm only slightly better in terms of ..
uhh, language.
because i love language.

Language is the way to express yourself, when you got no other way to speak out what you really think.

Words.

welcome me back to the place where i have deserted(:

yeaaa, its me back again.


[quote]
I saw Fel's blog, decided to add on.
I want to look out of the window.
I want to reverse time.
I love being the youngest, it gives me great pleasure.
I love 2007, i really do.
I don't know, in my 14 years of fun-filled life.
I love year 2007 best.
2007, what really happened:
The beginning of twittingx.
The meetings of Sophie, Felissa, Iceh, BBP, Claire(2) and manymany more in chills/dating rooms.
[H.P], where I met Harpreet(?), Kenneth, JunJie, Felicia, Tricia, Jaslyn, HongSoon, Avery, Jerald, Vanessa, Jessie, Nath&Yvonne.
[H.P], where my happiest slacking moments are in. :]
2007, where no troubles hit me.
2008, where every trouble hit me.
26 January, I remember :]
Weeks after that, i divorced Fel.
Sorry laoporh.
I couldn't cope.
I stopped HabboSG.
I restarted AuditionSEA.
<3
I love 2007.
Yes, I do :)
Also in 2007, Audrey finally talked to me.
I don't know why.
But she finally talked to me.
2008, she went again.
Take cares in Perth.
Take cares in Broderick, ShuQun.
I miss 07.
I miss 1E2.
I miss everything.
[/quote]

somehow, when i read this post, i started to cry.
just for adding on.

i really miss '07.
'05, i wasn't really actively involved.
'06, the beginning of everything.
'07, the middle - the memories that are loved.
'08, the end and back to square one.

'07; everything started.
I became closer to kenneth, kjj, ljj, janice, liting, cherlynn, fayth, tricia, nath, brenda, mak, otto-san(: , jerald, vivien, nesh, jessie, yvonne, tommy, angeline, hongzheng, vanny, so many people that the list could go on and on.
i met fiona, geraldine, elvis .. and alot alot of people.
how i miss the good old days, the times where we played around in hp, the times i fooled around, talked in flowery vulgar language.
but its' all over.

i can't go back again.
pretend that nothing happened, and continue the way i was there, too much things had happened, and ended there.
there's also no point.

one final dedication post;
may it mark the end.

Friendship is a type of feeling, a feeling that is shared inbetween two people after they communicate together and becomes friends. In one's life, different friends will appear in their life, sometimes, they might be passerbys in one's life, some may even be good friends for eternity.

I remember vividly hearing a quote,"One will always have friends, but never forever friends." I believe this quote. Because no matter how close or how good they are together, they will eventualy because of time or distance between each other, from close pals to become just friends. But we can't blame time or distance for the eventual result, we can only say that our friendship wasn't that strong to begin with.

Friendship needs time to nurture, and it needs trust and commitment among the two most. People who understand you alot are the ones which are hard to find. To really find somebody who understands you and can confide in vice-versa, is really very hard.

In life, three types of feelings have the most important roles: Kinship, Friendship and Love. Kinship is more important than friendship, because friends can betray you, but family members will never ever betray you, however, friendship is more important than life, because friends tend to be long-lasting, while love is only for awhile.

with love, hugs&misses,
<3.