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pathetic, pathetic me.
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pathetic, pathetic me.
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yay, its me, finally updating.
a proper update, nevertheless.

well, i wonder..
what am i thinking,
it seems like i just worry too much about things that wouldn't happen, overstress until the importance of life or death, care too much about stuffs i shouldn't ..
i'm sick and tired.
it just means so much, yet so little
the pieces flying away from my hands,
one by one, gone with the wind.

went for tution.
before that chiong the stupid zaoju
wth luh, 7 textbook chapter, screw it man.
then, do the paper.
damn okay, but a certain question stumped me.
then looklook, because followed ms quah's summary method,
i ended up wasting lots of time on summary which i thought i wouldn't.
damn.
no blame to ms quah - she meant good afterall, hopefully i pass.

then in the mrt, like a raving lunatic, i was there reciting the zaoju like shit.
they don't mean anything, cause words are dead, no matter how alive they seem, or how meaningful. It's only up to a person perception whether the person wants to hear/listen/follow and use the knowledge given freely to him with the help of internet, books, resources.

huijia looked emo. so halfway through the class i was sms-ing her, worried about her.
i phew-ed a sigh of relief when teacher told us she just giving us practices to do, maybe i worried too much overall.

guys are simply idiots with no brains, especially the one im mentioning here. he irritated the small kid by teaching the older bro in the class how to gamble. gamble away family somemore, make the small kid cry, so evil, and wanted to "take" the small kid home with him, philophile siaaa!

hnin hnin was bullying me on msn as usual. zzzz, and she reminded me that i said LAST YEAR that THIS YEAR i was gng to wear ethnic costume, but stm, so forgot, and didn't borrow, so need to leave it up to next year ^^ waahahahahas, i'll look fugly as usual, so heckcare uh. lucky, one year just simply comes and goes, ain it.. time seems so short now, constrainted by the usual needs of human necessarities.
(but it was amusing the part where she said i said that last year, cause i forgot)

hahas.

suddenly i had the initative to speak to kenneth again,
somehow although we have alr patched up and become friends,
it seemed too be just too late,
too late to return to the past.
if only, i didn't pick up her call.
if only, i ignored her sms.
if only, i had went to sleep then.
i guess, everything would be fine, i would be still habbo-ing and everything will be the same, i'll be deejaying..enjoying what i used to do.

i still don't understand why i can't let go,
i have been harping over this matter for ages,
but i just cannot move on.
i still miss the times.
it's like clinging on to a thread, which has alr broken.
pointless, but it just affected me too much.
the scene that happened months ago just repeatedly and repeatedly remind me how things fell apart, how i just went to sec3 camp to run away from reality..
and made it so much worse.
and when we patched, how i ran away again, escaping to shenzhen and hongkong ..
i dunno, i still cry sometimes when i think of it, just not as frequent as before,
but nevertheless, the feelings, though stagnant are still there,
it just meant too much for me to ditch, and abandon.
i'm sorry guys, for letting it go.
i couldn't bear it anymore.
it was too heavy a burden.
..

and, i don't cry.
i don't cry in school.
definitely.
no matter how things go, i must never cry in school,
no wonder how the tears just flow freely when i cry alone at home, quiet, serene enviroment, enjoying it all.


quiz, #06

Answer the following questions:


1. The person who last tagged you is...
Asyraf

2. Your relationship with him/her is...
uhhh, friend and classmate ^^

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her...
English-speaking, loves to play his guitar, loves his mates, has a strong ambition to win me, is actually a very nice and kind guy ^^

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you...
well, shake my hand foor good luck in secondary two last year when i was just about to go for the weatherstudy competition with my team members son last year sports day..calming down my nerves.

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you...
dun always beat me (as written beside my bloglink in his blog.)

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will...
._. well, uhh, do nothing? what am i supposed to do anyway?

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she should improve on will be...
Gender.. to join the gay gang, somehow...

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
cry ):

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be...
feel upset for losing a good friend.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is...
wait for his tag reply ):

11. Your overall impression of him/her is...
a crazy hilarious funny bugger ^^

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
they will feel that i don't deserve him.

13. The characteristics you love about yourself are...
uh. I got moodswings ^^

14. On the contrary, the characteristics you hate about yourself are...
I seem to lose my way whenever i go.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is...
somebody confident.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them...
why are you even my friend? You must be absolutely crazy man.

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you:
1. Hninhnin
2. Huaiyue
3. Jean
4. Shili
5. Irene
6. Weexin
7. Mary
8. Kirin
9. Inshirah
10. Huimin

18. Who is no. 6 having a relationship with?
ummm, i think she's still single.

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
female, duh?!

20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
both girls, gao les arh.

21. How about no.8 and 5?
it would be a crazy pair.

22. What is no.2 studying?
uhhh, amaths,emaths,d&t,combined sciences, geography and mt.

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
recently, last fri, in school, recess time.

24. What kind of music band does no.8 like?
well, i think crazy :D

25. Does no.1 has any siblings?
Yea! one younger brother

26. Will you woo no.3?
She's my laopo =.=" how to woo sia, btw, im not les.

27. How about no.7?
I don't do guys!!

28. Is no.4 single?
Not sure, but seems like he is still single! Go Ben!

29. What is the hobby of no.4?
chatting, using sms or phone and watching television.

30. Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
uh, never seen them talk to each other before

31. Where is no.2 studying at?
Shuqun secondary.

32. Say something casually about no.1.
a genius freak of a bestfriend ^^ (LUNATIC^^!)

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
I'm not les ):

34. Where does no.9 live at?
teban gardens.

35. What colour does no.4 like?
blue. pink. idk lah.

36. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
they are good friends.

37. Does no.7 likes no.2?
likes as in? Platonic sense, OFCOURSE! cause they will discuss on how to bully me ):

38. How do you get to know no.2?
primary school, when serving duty as freelance librarian :D

39. Does no.1 have any pets?
used to, but not now.

40. Is no.7 the sexiest girl in the world?
uhh, -no comment, later she read, kill me ): I still wanna live.

41. Do you think its possible if no.4 and no.5 date each other?
no, cause it's a homosexual relationship LOL.

42. Say something more about no.6.
she's cute, and remind me of piglet. :D

43. What is your relationship with no.9?
uh goodfriends.

44. List all the schools that no.1 to no.10 are in and originally from.
1. Swiss Cottage/Shuqun/Burma school
2. Shuqun/Princess Elizabeth
3. Shuqun/Rulang
4. Shuqun/Yuhua
5. Shuqun/Yuhua
6. Shuqun/Yuhua
7. Shuqun/Yuhua
8. Shuqun/Fuhua
9. Shuqun/Qifa
10.Shuqun/Yuhua
(If i am accurate)

45. What would you do if no.10 hates you?
): i will cry de D:

46. Which of the following are in a relationship?
ditto.

47. How did you first meet no.3?
school, first day somemore :D

48. How would you react if no.3 and no.10 are together?
uhhhhh, freak out.

49. What would you do if no.4 tells you she is pregnant?
._. find out whose child ^^

:D!

yay, its me, finally updating.
a proper update, nevertheless.

well, i wonder..
what am i thinking,
it seems like i just worry too much about things that wouldn't happen, overstress until the importance of life or death, care too much about stuffs i shouldn't ..
i'm sick and tired.
it just means so much, yet so little
the pieces flying away from my hands,
one by one, gone with the wind.

went for tution.
before that chiong the stupid zaoju
wth luh, 7 textbook chapter, screw it man.
then, do the paper.
damn okay, but a certain question stumped me.
then looklook, because followed ms quah's summary method,
i ended up wasting lots of time on summary which i thought i wouldn't.
damn.
no blame to ms quah - she meant good afterall, hopefully i pass.

then in the mrt, like a raving lunatic, i was there reciting the zaoju like shit.
they don't mean anything, cause words are dead, no matter how alive they seem, or how meaningful. It's only up to a person perception whether the person wants to hear/listen/follow and use the knowledge given freely to him with the help of internet, books, resources.

huijia looked emo. so halfway through the class i was sms-ing her, worried about her.
i phew-ed a sigh of relief when teacher told us she just giving us practices to do, maybe i worried too much overall.

guys are simply idiots with no brains, especially the one im mentioning here. he irritated the small kid by teaching the older bro in the class how to gamble. gamble away family somemore, make the small kid cry, so evil, and wanted to "take" the small kid home with him, philophile siaaa!

hnin hnin was bullying me on msn as usual. zzzz, and she reminded me that i said LAST YEAR that THIS YEAR i was gng to wear ethnic costume, but stm, so forgot, and didn't borrow, so need to leave it up to next year ^^ waahahahahas, i'll look fugly as usual, so heckcare uh. lucky, one year just simply comes and goes, ain it.. time seems so short now, constrainted by the usual needs of human necessarities.
(but it was amusing the part where she said i said that last year, cause i forgot)

hahas.

suddenly i had the initative to speak to kenneth again,
somehow although we have alr patched up and become friends,
it seemed too be just too late,
too late to return to the past.
if only, i didn't pick up her call.
if only, i ignored her sms.
if only, i had went to sleep then.
i guess, everything would be fine, i would be still habbo-ing and everything will be the same, i'll be deejaying..enjoying what i used to do.

i still don't understand why i can't let go,
i have been harping over this matter for ages,
but i just cannot move on.
i still miss the times.
it's like clinging on to a thread, which has alr broken.
pointless, but it just affected me too much.
the scene that happened months ago just repeatedly and repeatedly remind me how things fell apart, how i just went to sec3 camp to run away from reality..
and made it so much worse.
and when we patched, how i ran away again, escaping to shenzhen and hongkong ..
i dunno, i still cry sometimes when i think of it, just not as frequent as before,
but nevertheless, the feelings, though stagnant are still there,
it just meant too much for me to ditch, and abandon.
i'm sorry guys, for letting it go.
i couldn't bear it anymore.
it was too heavy a burden.
..

and, i don't cry.
i don't cry in school.
definitely.
no matter how things go, i must never cry in school,
no wonder how the tears just flow freely when i cry alone at home, quiet, serene enviroment, enjoying it all.


quiz, #06

Answer the following questions:


1. The person who last tagged you is...
Asyraf

2. Your relationship with him/her is...
uhhh, friend and classmate ^^

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her...
English-speaking, loves to play his guitar, loves his mates, has a strong ambition to win me, is actually a very nice and kind guy ^^

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you...
well, shake my hand foor good luck in secondary two last year when i was just about to go for the weatherstudy competition with my team members son last year sports day..calming down my nerves.

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you...
dun always beat me (as written beside my bloglink in his blog.)

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will...
._. well, uhh, do nothing? what am i supposed to do anyway?

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she should improve on will be...
Gender.. to join the gay gang, somehow...

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
cry ):

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be...
feel upset for losing a good friend.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is...
wait for his tag reply ):

11. Your overall impression of him/her is...
a crazy hilarious funny bugger ^^

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
they will feel that i don't deserve him.

13. The characteristics you love about yourself are...
uh. I got moodswings ^^

14. On the contrary, the characteristics you hate about yourself are...
I seem to lose my way whenever i go.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is...
somebody confident.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them...
why are you even my friend? You must be absolutely crazy man.

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you:
1. Hninhnin
2. Huaiyue
3. Jean
4. Shili
5. Irene
6. Weexin
7. Mary
8. Kirin
9. Inshirah
10. Huimin

18. Who is no. 6 having a relationship with?
ummm, i think she's still single.

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
female, duh?!

20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
both girls, gao les arh.

21. How about no.8 and 5?
it would be a crazy pair.

22. What is no.2 studying?
uhhh, amaths,emaths,d&t,combined sciences, geography and mt.

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
recently, last fri, in school, recess time.

24. What kind of music band does no.8 like?
well, i think crazy :D

25. Does no.1 has any siblings?
Yea! one younger brother

26. Will you woo no.3?
She's my laopo =.=" how to woo sia, btw, im not les.

27. How about no.7?
I don't do guys!!

28. Is no.4 single?
Not sure, but seems like he is still single! Go Ben!

29. What is the hobby of no.4?
chatting, using sms or phone and watching television.

30. Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
uh, never seen them talk to each other before

31. Where is no.2 studying at?
Shuqun secondary.

32. Say something casually about no.1.
a genius freak of a bestfriend ^^ (LUNATIC^^!)

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
I'm not les ):

34. Where does no.9 live at?
teban gardens.

35. What colour does no.4 like?
blue. pink. idk lah.

36. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
they are good friends.

37. Does no.7 likes no.2?
likes as in? Platonic sense, OFCOURSE! cause they will discuss on how to bully me ):

38. How do you get to know no.2?
primary school, when serving duty as freelance librarian :D

39. Does no.1 have any pets?
used to, but not now.

40. Is no.7 the sexiest girl in the world?
uhh, -no comment, later she read, kill me ): I still wanna live.

41. Do you think its possible if no.4 and no.5 date each other?
no, cause it's a homosexual relationship LOL.

42. Say something more about no.6.
she's cute, and remind me of piglet. :D

43. What is your relationship with no.9?
uh goodfriends.

44. List all the schools that no.1 to no.10 are in and originally from.
1. Swiss Cottage/Shuqun/Burma school
2. Shuqun/Princess Elizabeth
3. Shuqun/Rulang
4. Shuqun/Yuhua
5. Shuqun/Yuhua
6. Shuqun/Yuhua
7. Shuqun/Yuhua
8. Shuqun/Fuhua
9. Shuqun/Qifa
10.Shuqun/Yuhua
(If i am accurate)

45. What would you do if no.10 hates you?
): i will cry de D:

46. Which of the following are in a relationship?
ditto.

47. How did you first meet no.3?
school, first day somemore :D

48. How would you react if no.3 and no.10 are together?
uhhhhh, freak out.

49. What would you do if no.4 tells you she is pregnant?
._. find out whose child ^^

:D!

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LOL! one week ago, i posted a damn long post.
Well, today got something interesting to share:
[quote] http://www.oldbeng.blogspot.com [/quote]

The Cookie Thief
by Valerie Cox

A woman was waiting at an airport one night,
With several long hours before her flight.
She hunted for a book in the airport shops.
Bought a bag of cookies and found a place to drop.

She was engrossed in her book but happened to see,
That the man sitting beside her, as bold as could be.
Grabbed a cookie or two from the bag in between,
Which she tried to ignore to avoid a scene.

So she munched the cookies and watched the clock,
As the gutsy cookie thief diminished her stock.
She was getting more irritated as the minutes ticked by,
Thinking, "If I wasn't so nice, I would blacken his eye."

With each cookie she took, he took one too,
When only one was left, she wondered what he would do.
With a smile on his face, and a nervous laugh,
He took the last cookie and broke it in half.

He offered her half, as he ate the other,
She snatched it from him and thought... oooh, brother.
This guy has some nerve and he's also rude,
Why he didn't even show any gratitude!

She had never known when she had been so galled,
And sighed with relief when her flight was called.
She gathered her belongings and headed to the gate,
Refusing to look back at the thieving ingrate.

She boarded the plane, and sank in her seat,
Then she sought her book, which was almost complete.
As she reached in her baggage, she gasped with surprise,
There was her bag of cookies, in front of her eyes.

If mine are here, she moaned in despair,
The others were his, and he tried to share.
Too late to apologize, she realized with grief,
That she was the rude one, the ingrate, the thief.

=====

How many times in our lives,
have we absolutely known
that something was a certain way,
only to discover later that
what we believed to be true ... was not?

=====

Source: Chicken Soup for the Soul, (c) 1996 by Jack Canfield and Mark Victor Hansen

LOL! one week ago, i posted a damn long post.
Well, today got something interesting to share:
[quote] http://www.oldbeng.blogspot.com [/quote]

The Cookie Thief
by Valerie Cox

A woman was waiting at an airport one night,
With several long hours before her flight.
She hunted for a book in the airport shops.
Bought a bag of cookies and found a place to drop.

She was engrossed in her book but happened to see,
That the man sitting beside her, as bold as could be.
Grabbed a cookie or two from the bag in between,
Which she tried to ignore to avoid a scene.

So she munched the cookies and watched the clock,
As the gutsy cookie thief diminished her stock.
She was getting more irritated as the minutes ticked by,
Thinking, "If I wasn't so nice, I would blacken his eye."

With each cookie she took, he took one too,
When only one was left, she wondered what he would do.
With a smile on his face, and a nervous laugh,
He took the last cookie and broke it in half.

He offered her half, as he ate the other,
She snatched it from him and thought... oooh, brother.
This guy has some nerve and he's also rude,
Why he didn't even show any gratitude!

She had never known when she had been so galled,
And sighed with relief when her flight was called.
She gathered her belongings and headed to the gate,
Refusing to look back at the thieving ingrate.

She boarded the plane, and sank in her seat,
Then she sought her book, which was almost complete.
As she reached in her baggage, she gasped with surprise,
There was her bag of cookies, in front of her eyes.

If mine are here, she moaned in despair,
The others were his, and he tried to share.
Too late to apologize, she realized with grief,
That she was the rude one, the ingrate, the thief.

=====

How many times in our lives,
have we absolutely known
that something was a certain way,
only to discover later that
what we believed to be true ... was not?

=====

Source: Chicken Soup for the Soul, (c) 1996 by Jack Canfield and Mark Victor Hansen

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Secondhand Serenade - "Your Call" lyrics.

dedicated to this person, and this person and this person, the list goes on and on :x

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes,
What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your...)

I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
[X4]
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Secondhand Serenade - "Your Call" lyrics.

dedicated to this person, and this person and this person, the list goes on and on :x

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes,
What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your...)

I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
[X4]
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

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its friday!
somehow i don't feel happy at all, knowing its the end of a hectic week ..
woke up late,
started waking around 6, considered too early, so slept again, all th way until 7,
rushed to bustop at 7.05?
7.17 bus arrived,
7.22 bus reached school bustop.
walao, i first time so almost LATE luh, =="
just a couple of minutes of stepping in the school i'll be late alr.
i guess people were shocked to see me arrive at class so late hahas.
okay, then i went on to history class,
hands trembling, shivering.
no idea why, the weather's too cold alr.
somehow, in history, the stomaches came back.
pe, height and weight plus 1.2 km run with kirin.
omg, im short
):
megamega, short
D:
so short!
):
-obsess.
eee, im a shortie.
):
):
):
):
):
):

T.T
i want grow, fastfast.
i think i every year only grow 1cm+
):
i want a growth spurtttt!
nownownow!
):
kuaidian!
):
T.T

okay, stop obsessing.
somehow i was drifting off to sleep after ms sunarti's class ended,
so tired suddenly,
exhaustion caught me unaware.
was gng to sleep like a peeg, when inshirah suddenly shouted,
yes, she's right behind me -.-"
and she shouted, woke me up =="
came home, watched television and stuff,
then suddenly exhaustion took me unaware again.
drifted off to sleep without thinking much,
woke up at 9+
LOL, like say, 4 hours ++ of sleep,
eyer, im a pig ._.

suddenly, i think about you,
it's not that bad as it was the last time,
didn't have the time to think so much about what happened the past few times,
so i didn't really cry,
but one thing im sure is,
i still miss you,
im still continuing loving you,
it's so easy to say a word of bye,
yet so hard to really cut off from you,
i miss you girl.
come back to me,
please?
i want to continue our broken relationship,
though i know i'll be suffering at the end ..
i miss you badly.
turn back time if you want,
i'll go back in time with you,
cause i want to still remain as one of your best friends ..
you were once the younger sister i never had,
but yet,
life has to take you away from me,
reducing a part of joy in my lifetime,
making me sure i'll regret this.
D:

looking at my previous posts, back when i was secondary one, or two,
it made me feel very silly,
that such a fool like me have written such nonsense.
(:

you think you're forgotten,
but you're not,
i tell you so.
the wound that you cut in my heart so deeply still remains there,
continuing to start bleeding and bleeding,
so much that i feel like crying all the time, and
not stopping at all ..
how could you tell so much lies, yet expect me to forgive
you and take it in my stride,
i ain no perfect person,
i have feelings too.
how could you just walk away,
expecting me to pick up the broken pieces of my journey with you,
and continue to move on?
i hate you,
and i can't bear to continue loving you.
loving you hurts, just so much.
it used to be a pain in my heart,
but now i can't still say that i'm successfully over you,
part of me is still wishing that i still had you for support,
the support engine within me is collapsing,
but i can proudly say that it does hurt, but not that bad to the extent of
crying.
thankyou, once again.
thankyou, for giving me this hurtful
experience.
we can't continue to be friends,
i still can't pretend that
nothing happened ..
even though it has been more than 6 months ..
my heart still remembers the hurt and pain.
don't expect me to return back with a grin,
and continue our past friendship,
no matter how strong i seem,
i can't just forget that nothing happened,
sorry, i just can't forget ..

lalalalas,

okay, end post.

..

i want go pandan reservoir someday,

somehow, i miss it so much.

):

must time really distance friendship?
..
it makes me kinda scared,
does it mean that after the o's,
we'll never be friends again?
i don't want that to happen,
i don't want time to overwhelm over us,
and distance us right after the major exam,
like what it happened once,
i can't stand losing yet another close friend,
promise you'll still be there,
waiting for me,
chatting eagerly with me,
laughing crazily with me and my antics,
continuing to be my friend..

loves,

its friday!
somehow i don't feel happy at all, knowing its the end of a hectic week ..
woke up late,
started waking around 6, considered too early, so slept again, all th way until 7,
rushed to bustop at 7.05?
7.17 bus arrived,
7.22 bus reached school bustop.
walao, i first time so almost LATE luh, =="
just a couple of minutes of stepping in the school i'll be late alr.
i guess people were shocked to see me arrive at class so late hahas.
okay, then i went on to history class,
hands trembling, shivering.
no idea why, the weather's too cold alr.
somehow, in history, the stomaches came back.
pe, height and weight plus 1.2 km run with kirin.
omg, im short
):
megamega, short
D:
so short!
):
-obsess.
eee, im a shortie.
):
):
):
):
):
):

T.T
i want grow, fastfast.
i think i every year only grow 1cm+
):
i want a growth spurtttt!
nownownow!
):
kuaidian!
):
T.T

okay, stop obsessing.
somehow i was drifting off to sleep after ms sunarti's class ended,
so tired suddenly,
exhaustion caught me unaware.
was gng to sleep like a peeg, when inshirah suddenly shouted,
yes, she's right behind me -.-"
and she shouted, woke me up =="
came home, watched television and stuff,
then suddenly exhaustion took me unaware again.
drifted off to sleep without thinking much,
woke up at 9+
LOL, like say, 4 hours ++ of sleep,
eyer, im a pig ._.

suddenly, i think about you,
it's not that bad as it was the last time,
didn't have the time to think so much about what happened the past few times,
so i didn't really cry,
but one thing im sure is,
i still miss you,
im still continuing loving you,
it's so easy to say a word of bye,
yet so hard to really cut off from you,
i miss you girl.
come back to me,
please?
i want to continue our broken relationship,
though i know i'll be suffering at the end ..
i miss you badly.
turn back time if you want,
i'll go back in time with you,
cause i want to still remain as one of your best friends ..
you were once the younger sister i never had,
but yet,
life has to take you away from me,
reducing a part of joy in my lifetime,
making me sure i'll regret this.
D:

looking at my previous posts, back when i was secondary one, or two,
it made me feel very silly,
that such a fool like me have written such nonsense.
(:

you think you're forgotten,
but you're not,
i tell you so.
the wound that you cut in my heart so deeply still remains there,
continuing to start bleeding and bleeding,
so much that i feel like crying all the time, and
not stopping at all ..
how could you tell so much lies, yet expect me to forgive
you and take it in my stride,
i ain no perfect person,
i have feelings too.
how could you just walk away,
expecting me to pick up the broken pieces of my journey with you,
and continue to move on?
i hate you,
and i can't bear to continue loving you.
loving you hurts, just so much.
it used to be a pain in my heart,
but now i can't still say that i'm successfully over you,
part of me is still wishing that i still had you for support,
the support engine within me is collapsing,
but i can proudly say that it does hurt, but not that bad to the extent of
crying.
thankyou, once again.
thankyou, for giving me this hurtful
experience.
we can't continue to be friends,
i still can't pretend that
nothing happened ..
even though it has been more than 6 months ..
my heart still remembers the hurt and pain.
don't expect me to return back with a grin,
and continue our past friendship,
no matter how strong i seem,
i can't just forget that nothing happened,
sorry, i just can't forget ..

lalalalas,

okay, end post.

..

i want go pandan reservoir someday,

somehow, i miss it so much.

):

must time really distance friendship?
..
it makes me kinda scared,
does it mean that after the o's,
we'll never be friends again?
i don't want that to happen,
i don't want time to overwhelm over us,
and distance us right after the major exam,
like what it happened once,
i can't stand losing yet another close friend,
promise you'll still be there,
waiting for me,
chatting eagerly with me,
laughing crazily with me and my antics,
continuing to be my friend..

loves,

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injured myself with krystal's bike,
gotten scratches, four long, red ones.
):

injured myself with krystal's bike,
gotten scratches, four long, red ones.
):

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:D!
sorry! was a lil busy with school work, well im back!
monday, went out with clarine, amanda, malikka, atiqah.
funfunfun! (:
went to jp, was late, manda was pissed T.T
then from jp go to je watch getsmart.
eeyer luh, the stupid food costs so much $ -broke
getsmart was humourous.
if you haven't watched it, i recommend you,
highly amusing and interesting.
LOLLLLL!
amanda was laughing like a mad cow there, i was like "do i know her?!" LOL!
then after that went arcade, seesee, playplay, okay, i have no life,
i'm noob okeh! ^^
met the vollyballers, my third nu er(:
then went to take the neoprints.
LOL! everybody was cursing about the neoprint machine so fast,
hehe, took the neoprints back home as reminder of this day.
(:
then later, we all saw ahem.
ahem is a crazy bugger okeh. Where got guys like girls who don't always listen to boyfriend, siao one, naughty one. Funny guy sia, so blur and clumsy like somebody i know :D really pity amanda and joyce and me, we three so xin ku finding him for that somebody and that somebody too shyshy :l, gather up your courage k, true love only comes by once, so grasp and hold it well :D, everybody deserves a chance at love.
excluding me, ofcourse!(:


conclusion, guys are confusing and complicating creatures, which girls can't be bothered to understand ^^

:D!
sorry! was a lil busy with school work, well im back!
monday, went out with clarine, amanda, malikka, atiqah.
funfunfun! (:
went to jp, was late, manda was pissed T.T
then from jp go to je watch getsmart.
eeyer luh, the stupid food costs so much $ -broke
getsmart was humourous.
if you haven't watched it, i recommend you,
highly amusing and interesting.
LOLLLLL!
amanda was laughing like a mad cow there, i was like "do i know her?!" LOL!
then after that went arcade, seesee, playplay, okay, i have no life,
i'm noob okeh! ^^
met the vollyballers, my third nu er(:
then went to take the neoprints.
LOL! everybody was cursing about the neoprint machine so fast,
hehe, took the neoprints back home as reminder of this day.
(:
then later, we all saw ahem.
ahem is a crazy bugger okeh. Where got guys like girls who don't always listen to boyfriend, siao one, naughty one. Funny guy sia, so blur and clumsy like somebody i know :D really pity amanda and joyce and me, we three so xin ku finding him for that somebody and that somebody too shyshy :l, gather up your courage k, true love only comes by once, so grasp and hold it well :D, everybody deserves a chance at love.
excluding me, ofcourse!(:


conclusion, guys are confusing and complicating creatures, which girls can't be bothered to understand ^^

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attended citimilk run today, 4.5km.
was grumbling about it last nite, this morning and stuffs.
but end up i went.
netball and wushu same bus.
clarine and amanda so diu lian luh - MY NU ER LEI, embarrass me nia ):
when i reached there, i was like ._. diedie, latelate.
bus reached bustop at 1.25!
then came to school bustop at 1.30!
wth luh.
so ran all the way from carpark to sch, well, more then half of it anw.
dead tired.
then reached, it was not like i was late.
then settled down and combed hair.
-.- had to put down, so paiseh, quickly tie up again
meanwhile, realized that bag rusted -.- , dirtied my clothing cancan
D:

then go for run, starting like walkwalk nia, so just walkwalk,
then later on, see got space, start running with mingyun, cally, hafizah.
then later pritesh joined our group ..
halfway through, we lost cally.
then later on we separate.
mingyun and me and pritesh and hafizah.
then later on, i got separated from mingyun.
i drinking water, she run -.-
my saliva at that time become saltywater liao.
i digested this morning food too fwahahahas :D
then met up with pritesh hafizah.
so run together, jog together, really enjoyed the teamwork spirit.
didn't see netball members.
then it was like.
the SJI students damn rude sia.
complain this complain that,
yell like nobody's business,
sibei irritating luh..

dunno what sch de ..
don't want drink finish water, dun drink lah, throw away lah.
dump it on the ground somemore
got bottle on the floor just kick,
mei you gong de xin ah,
what is singapore going to be sia!
D:

then reach finishing point AT LAST.
i heard somebody voice out similar complaint to what i was thinking:
How long was this damn thing going to take.
HAHAHAHAHAHAS :D

then, later on, cally come, netball girls come, ms yap come, .. all return lah, asyraf also.
principal praise us wor ^^
then .. the vollyball girls so slack, slowly slowly man man walkwalk, like model liddat.
thankgoodness this time all netball de people at least got run.
i'm proud of myself :DDD!

but damn tiring though,
some people damn smart.
bring home 100plus, mineral water, bunch of BANANAS - LOLLL! and APPLES.
:D
so smart, next time i must learn from them.
anw, its all free :DDD!

conclusion: fun but tiring :D

"A conclusion is when you want to stop thinking."

:x

attended citimilk run today, 4.5km.
was grumbling about it last nite, this morning and stuffs.
but end up i went.
netball and wushu same bus.
clarine and amanda so diu lian luh - MY NU ER LEI, embarrass me nia ):
when i reached there, i was like ._. diedie, latelate.
bus reached bustop at 1.25!
then came to school bustop at 1.30!
wth luh.
so ran all the way from carpark to sch, well, more then half of it anw.
dead tired.
then reached, it was not like i was late.
then settled down and combed hair.
-.- had to put down, so paiseh, quickly tie up again
meanwhile, realized that bag rusted -.- , dirtied my clothing cancan
D:

then go for run, starting like walkwalk nia, so just walkwalk,
then later on, see got space, start running with mingyun, cally, hafizah.
then later pritesh joined our group ..
halfway through, we lost cally.
then later on we separate.
mingyun and me and pritesh and hafizah.
then later on, i got separated from mingyun.
i drinking water, she run -.-
my saliva at that time become saltywater liao.
i digested this morning food too fwahahahas :D
then met up with pritesh hafizah.
so run together, jog together, really enjoyed the teamwork spirit.
didn't see netball members.
then it was like.
the SJI students damn rude sia.
complain this complain that,
yell like nobody's business,
sibei irritating luh..

dunno what sch de ..
don't want drink finish water, dun drink lah, throw away lah.
dump it on the ground somemore
got bottle on the floor just kick,
mei you gong de xin ah,
what is singapore going to be sia!
D:

then reach finishing point AT LAST.
i heard somebody voice out similar complaint to what i was thinking:
How long was this damn thing going to take.
HAHAHAHAHAHAS :D

then, later on, cally come, netball girls come, ms yap come, .. all return lah, asyraf also.
principal praise us wor ^^
then .. the vollyball girls so slack, slowly slowly man man walkwalk, like model liddat.
thankgoodness this time all netball de people at least got run.
i'm proud of myself :DDD!

but damn tiring though,
some people damn smart.
bring home 100plus, mineral water, bunch of BANANAS - LOLLL! and APPLES.
:D
so smart, next time i must learn from them.
anw, its all free :DDD!

conclusion: fun but tiring :D

"A conclusion is when you want to stop thinking."

:x

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tagged by fiona,

Quiz #5

1. Who would you want to be with in future?
somebody who loves and understand me for who i am(:

2. What do you want to do in future?
No idea, no time to think of it yet =l

3. If you would have the chance, who would you like to meet?
Stitch<3

4. Who will you choose - Family/friends?
Family if need to be, if not, i love both(:

5. Do you love someone, that you would even die for him/her?
yeah, my family :]

6. Who is your current crush?
the computer is unable to get a response, from our customer's blogging service, please, try again later.

7. When was your first kiss?
uhh, when i was born? :x

8. What would your future wedding be like?
simplistic if possible?

9. What race/religion would your husband/wife be in future?
i guess, chinese or malay (i'm racistxz!)

10. Which company would you work for?
no idea at this moment.

11. Would you rather partner with a nerd or a smarty?
depends luh, i guess nerd bah, smarty later piss me off ):

12. Who do you think is your future husband/wife?
no idea at this moment.

13. Which place would you stand at if you were a girl and being proposed?
right above a hole in the ground :D

14. When was the last time you hug a person?
Today, hugged my mei ^^

15. What type of person would you date?
somebody who loves and understand me for who i am, and accepts everything i am, including my imperfections? :D

16. What is your favourite food?
anything to do with chicken and curry(:

17. What would you do if you found out your crush fancy someone else?
uh, do nothing.

18. Which restaurant do you think is the best?
dunno, i guess all have their own advantages and disadvantages..

19. What type of people give you a grumble?
backstabbers, hypocrites?

20. Finally, would you ever tell your crush that you like him/her?
i guess, it all depends.

Now pass this email to at least 15 people.

don't want, if you want do, just do(:
and, will tag those who are keen :D

ROFL LMAO, i know i'm lame, but whateverxz(:

trouble trouble, bubble bubble ..

"Pop!" goes the bubble,
(:

tagged by fiona,

Quiz #5

1. Who would you want to be with in future?
somebody who loves and understand me for who i am(:

2. What do you want to do in future?
No idea, no time to think of it yet =l

3. If you would have the chance, who would you like to meet?
Stitch<3

4. Who will you choose - Family/friends?
Family if need to be, if not, i love both(:

5. Do you love someone, that you would even die for him/her?
yeah, my family :]

6. Who is your current crush?
the computer is unable to get a response, from our customer's blogging service, please, try again later.

7. When was your first kiss?
uhh, when i was born? :x

8. What would your future wedding be like?
simplistic if possible?

9. What race/religion would your husband/wife be in future?
i guess, chinese or malay (i'm racistxz!)

10. Which company would you work for?
no idea at this moment.

11. Would you rather partner with a nerd or a smarty?
depends luh, i guess nerd bah, smarty later piss me off ):

12. Who do you think is your future husband/wife?
no idea at this moment.

13. Which place would you stand at if you were a girl and being proposed?
right above a hole in the ground :D

14. When was the last time you hug a person?
Today, hugged my mei ^^

15. What type of person would you date?
somebody who loves and understand me for who i am, and accepts everything i am, including my imperfections? :D

16. What is your favourite food?
anything to do with chicken and curry(:

17. What would you do if you found out your crush fancy someone else?
uh, do nothing.

18. Which restaurant do you think is the best?
dunno, i guess all have their own advantages and disadvantages..

19. What type of people give you a grumble?
backstabbers, hypocrites?

20. Finally, would you ever tell your crush that you like him/her?
i guess, it all depends.

Now pass this email to at least 15 people.

don't want, if you want do, just do(:
and, will tag those who are keen :D

ROFL LMAO, i know i'm lame, but whateverxz(:

trouble trouble, bubble bubble ..

"Pop!" goes the bubble,
(: