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pushing away the borders,
getting closer and closer,
losing grip,
losing reality,
everything goes.

i was right afterall.
I said hello, and you said goodbye,
without even a glance.
guess i didn't matter to you at all,
just a playdoll,
whose there for you to toy around.
guess what?
you're getting out of my life exactly six months later.
i can't wait
...
yes, i can't wait,
but..
there's still a slight diffidence in my tone.
i really honestly sincerely treated you as my friend.
having cold hard truth hit me,
didn't really had a effect.
when did it start? .. the first day we met?
i was positive.
you weren't.
and you dissed me.
i didn't mind.
but why now?
why continue the charade?
funny?
i don't get you.
i feel used.
like a broken toy.
i can't express how i feel right now.
sad?
upset?
depressed?
my tears are brimming out right now,
because of you.

no more.

pushing away the borders,
getting closer and closer,
losing grip,
losing reality,
everything goes.

i was right afterall.
I said hello, and you said goodbye,
without even a glance.
guess i didn't matter to you at all,
just a playdoll,
whose there for you to toy around.
guess what?
you're getting out of my life exactly six months later.
i can't wait
...
yes, i can't wait,
but..
there's still a slight diffidence in my tone.
i really honestly sincerely treated you as my friend.
having cold hard truth hit me,
didn't really had a effect.
when did it start? .. the first day we met?
i was positive.
you weren't.
and you dissed me.
i didn't mind.
but why now?
why continue the charade?
funny?
i don't get you.
i feel used.
like a broken toy.
i can't express how i feel right now.
sad?
upset?
depressed?
my tears are brimming out right now,
because of you.

no more.

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i'm sick and tired of mozzies.
mozzies, you suck!
suckarse!!!!!
irritating me,
itching me,
making me cry out in fear ):

I HATE YOUUUUU!!!
rofl
-acts childish.

but now its no longer itching =D

i'm sick and tired of mozzies.
mozzies, you suck!
suckarse!!!!!
irritating me,
itching me,
making me cry out in fear ):

I HATE YOUUUUU!!!
rofl
-acts childish.

but now its no longer itching =D

tired.

I'm sick and tired of being a source of motivation.
it sucks.
trust me, you wouldn't wanna be me.
so, please find somebody better.
okay?

i don't care what you say,
i just want it my way.
don't like it, too bad.
suit yourself.

Bustling activity these days.

I surrender, with a white flag nevertheless.
I claim exhaustion.
My eyes are partially closing.
My back aches.
My heart aches in loneliness.
Do you ever feel that way?
Like whatever you do is SIMPLY not good enough, and there are always room for improvement? And the worse part is where people give you snide remarks like, do badly k, we'll benefit. Just how screwed up is this?!

I just came back from environment club.
Disappointed at the lack of apitude by alot of people.
Since you call yourself a EARTH-LOVER, you should bother to help using recycled materials, right? You should also get used to the idea of cleaning up after yourselves right? Ask yourself, did you do it? The answer is a practical no.

All we know is complain and complain and complain about the workload. But do we ever see the hardwork behnd those people who gives the orders? Fyi, i was the "leader" for the day, giving work to other people, organizing them. It hurt to be there, to scream and shout at them to do this and do that when i was so exhausted myself. I'm still considered a junior there, yet there are so many expectations of me. It ended up where i would try my best to plaster on a smile and give the work with the reciever groaning and get to work grudgingly. Some people irritated me to the core until I can swear that, If i heard them one more time, i will really go and give them a lecture. They were the slackers, those who did nothing, just sit there and stare, sms, blank stare at celling, talk to each other. When give them work, they run. How irritating is that?

Tomorrow will be speech day. -groans, it's going to be a long day, first SPEECH DAY WITH THE SHAKE HAND, PHOTO TAKING (crude shit) and BOWING ):! I hate phototaking. I look so morbid already, don't take my photo, pretty please. It just reflects how ugly i am on the outside. Then we have to wait for the parade, and the band, and the wushu, and speeches. Oh god, can this day get any longer? Then is meixuan's birthday party at IMM following tuition and finally destressing session at library.

I fear that saturday would seem more like friday to me. It seems like an extended friday, a school day somehow.

Okay, that's updating for now.
Bye,